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At this point Jaxx never disappoint. I'm under a torrent of emotions throughout reading this, everything immaculate, the pacing was amazing and in the right places, mostly how intense the emotions were portrayed got my whole body experiencing it.

And I don't need to explain how exactly my body experienced it, just know that I even had to check my calendar.

This here, depicting how true it is that abuse is possible despite one's statures compared the abuser.

I've seen many people questioning big tall men being abused, and their question always, "why? You can fight back with that body of yours"

No, it's not that simple. Violence is not simple. Even in the case of self defence, it is not simple. Third person POV might numb you of the feeling, it can't be explained. But as the first person, raising your hand, to retaliate it's harder than you think it is, harder than it seems in the movies. But if you think violence is as simple as raising your hand and charge as your rage tells you, I beg of you to seek therapist.

And it's even harder when the other person was someone who used to abuse you when you weren't capable of protecting yourself. Or someone you used to love.

It's lost on me why people hating Woowon? When I genuinely thought people would dislike Seo-an more, considering his temperament and control freak side. I guess you people never have an a55hole of a family you hate but can't get rid of, both Seo-an and Woonwo responses are valid.

They're actually quite the same, the way they're both not in control of their life, but one in wealth while the other not having enough.

Seo-an being the rich kid but never loved, everything he do never enough and constantly talked down. He thirst for recognition, to have something of his own, to have control, which led to his panic disorder because there he don't have the control and the ghost of his father's pressure suffocates him. It's amazing enough he could stand in front of his father given his condition. When Woonwo came into his life, it's not that his condition got better, it just so happens Woonwo soothes his need of control and his thirst of affection, being someone's sole attention, which also why he's short tempered when Woonwo didn't do as he say.

Woonwo on the other hand, the kid who's too used to give up, his life a series of misfortunes and he believes the harder he hold on to something, he'll lose it. He's too used to abuse that he came to think it's faster to take it than fight against it, and give up rather than fight for it, after all nothing goes well with his life. Much the same with how Seo-an turned a control freak (which ironically exacerbate his anxiety) as a coping mechanism, Woonwo turned pessimistic as a coping mechanism (no disappointment if there's no expectation). But he sees Seo-an and he realized that things he did wasn't for vain, which led him to become more positive and open to try new things he otherwise wouldn't before it.

But traumas isn't that simple. Seen in how Seo-an still can't stand up against his father and the expectation placed on him, and how Woonwo couldn't dismiss his father despite knowing that old bastard wouldn't change. This is where, the notion of "family love" takes core, in the most twisted yet basic way. Deep down in their hearts, against the better good for themselves, they still crave to have a place.

They're both exhausted, much too used on being abused, their coping mechanism took different approach, yet they're not so different. Their thought process can't be more opposite and here is where the conflict grew, like two people in a maze searching for the same goal yet chooses different twist and turns.

It takes time to learn other's perspectives, much like the characters in the story and the readers, both Seo-an and Woonwo have yet find the meeting point of their differences.

Everyone fighting over who's to side with on the comments basically choosing over a killer and a murderer, none are the wiser.

They're both unhinged, they both played each other, they're both hollowed, they gives each other the chances to manipulate themselves.

So really, is there any need to fight over which is better or worse? Why not see how fascinating it is that people can be so driven and influenced into violence and the potential of their own darker side due to both external and internal circumstances?

I think this story, much like some classic literatures, wants to show that people are capable of madness, in that very essence of love which people worshipped about, and how there's many form of love being shown in this story.

Everyone seems to forget that they both manipulating each other from the start, they planned their steps while using and trapping each other and drowning together in their own desires & circumstances. Wilhelm's feelings went well into toxic obsession, while Reinhardt grew into conditioned love due to her guilt, relief and "debt".

She gave Wilhelm a leeway, a lot, when he tricked her time and again, it's obvious to see how she struggles to trust him, up until he gifted her the ex husband's body to chop up. In that point she had no choice but to fall in love with him, but the seeds of doubt still there, there were still moments she felt something is off whenever she's with Wilhelm.

She can take him tricking her, but she cannot take him hurting people she cares about. She's not a good person at the surface, she's ready to hurt people who hurt her, she'll willingly retaliate worst, she is vengeance. But she have a line to never cross, shown in how she felt guilty using people who didn't do her wrong, at least she won't hurt/harm them intentionally. But Wilhelm crossed that line, and that's when she couldn't give him a pardon anymore.

I think this story can only be understood deeply when you think deeper than what's offered on the plate in this story.

Wilhelm's character is also deeply interesting, I can't say he's right or he's wrong. From our POV yes he is wrong. But when you're in his shoes, I think it's safe to say that he's so emotionally underdeveloped that he couldn't understand what and where he's wrong. Is it innate? Is it due to his pitiful past life? I think that even though he was guided and cared for better in his second life, the mold that was his first life will still be there. You can see so much conflicts within him, that he could care for other (visibly Dietrich) but ALSO no, his whole life is about Reinhardt and she's his master, his goddess.

Anyway that's that lol

Hold up... I only remember Jinyao confessed but i don't remember Yiyun said yes...? Suddenly they're surat seeing each other or did i misunderstood and Yiyun only said so bcs his co star asked?

I'm actually curious how was the Lord's thought process went, what was the last or possibly the most thing which catalyst the change in his behavior. Did he worked it out that he can't get Nakyum by force, or did he try to mimic the big sister's gentle/affectionate approach which obviously warrant more obedience (or affection (?)) out of Nakyum

All bad things in the world and they're congested into that guy which i don't even remember what's the hair color for no nonsense allowed in my memory

Well well, he was sus from the start so this isn't a surprise. Tho it's not sure yet if it means he -or them, with moony- are bad guys or not

Hmmmmmmmmm the development feel so rushed and it's bothers me