I really want to understand why this FL does not have any sense of self.
Everything she says sounds so childish. Like girl, you are a woman, if you want to sleep in the ward do that and why does she care so much about what these people feel for her or the other her.
I thought she wanted to leave but here she is trying to start friendships with people who technically treated her other self as an invisible object.
The need for approval from these people is stifling.
The way the world is, she can just enter a boat and leave.. sigh!!!