
i rlly hope sooin can get into a healthy relationship or like... get some help, whether the vampire is a part if it or not. thats probably unrealistic but it really hurts seeing him think like that :( just a reminder for everyone !! you're value doesn't depend on what you can provide someone. you're important and valuable no matter what !!

fuck i knew it was going too well... honestly though i do feel bad for raymond :/ like hearing rhosphdilt (theres no way im spelling that right lmao) tell him that, knowing what he did to his father... i get why that pushed him over the edge and he's kind of giving up on happiness with ian :( obviously i feel hurt bc i dont want to see ian be sad but like... i cant be too mad at raymond. not to mention this is a historical webtoon so things aren't as easy as "let's run away together". aah they were so cute at the beginning im gonna hold onto the first half of this chapter to get me through the incoming angst
i think ray is being genuine rn i mean, we saw his inner thoughts and he said he cared about what ian thought of him so i think hes being truthful. of course, that doesnt mean hes not manipulating ian, i just don't think hes intentionally doing it. theyre both broken people that had horrible things happen to them, they just deal with it differently. thats why ian can relate. plus, ian is in love with him and can't leave him alone when he's in this state :/ i dont really know what ray plans to do next but i hope hes able to get his revenge in a way that won't hurt anyone (except nobles) (i would personally love to see them overthrow the govt and redistribute the wealth lol). again, probably just wishful thinking but i just ian to be happy (and ray honestly, hes done some shitty things (like *really* shitty things) but idk, hes a broken person and i kinda just want him to be okay)