Beautiful art and excellent understanding of anatomy. Did you see that panel in Chapter 3 when he threw himself on the bed! I could feel the depth of those sheets!!
Or is the author drawing the men with broader shoulders. I could've sworn that Nakyum was still kind of scrawny even under all his robes, but in some recent panels he is W I D E.
Good! He was looking like a little boy before and it made me uncomfortable visually. At least now he looks a little bit older.
well nakyum wears very big clothes that don’t outline his figure at all, that’s probably why he seems wide. i don’t think nakyum’s ever been overly skinny, he’s always been somewhat toned
Chapter 1 says the uke is a first year middle schooler in the flashback (Japan's middle school goes from 12-15) but he looks 16, not 12 at all. Am I missing something?
No he's a freshman high schooler but because he just turned into a high schooler he isn't used to it and forgets that's why he refers to others as " high schoolers "
Average, aimless smut. Not really a compelling story. Like a less charismatic Okane ga Nai! with buff dudes.
He is the kind of person you see in real life that believe their own hype and have an inflated sense of self-worth to the point that they trash everyone around them. Sometimes that sense of entitlement gets them in trouble, or job offers/opportunities don't land in their laps like they expected. Minho thought he was the greatest writer ever and yet Duna became the gold star in the department. He burned his bridge with her over envy and pride. He is so unlikable because he believes he's just so much better than everyone else, but people like that often get their comeuppance since the universe seems to love to throw curveballs at egotistical people.
On the one hand, Minho deserves a lot of the shit he's dealing with because of his bad attitude; even when he gets beaten down, there's still a wall there that prevents him from truly humbling himself and realize why everything is going belly up. He knows that the senior staff look down on him, but he doesn't realize that he also needs to earn the respect of his peers or he won't get far in life. I do empathize with his fear of being labelled irrelevant or incompetent and being rejected, and feeling envious over someone else's success, though, and the fear of being mocked by peers as a failure, of being run-of-the-mill or "average". The author of this story really maintains that fine balance between sympathy and scorn one should have toward a guy like him. Yeah he's suffered a lot of humiliation and egg on his face, but he was an asshole for no reason. He is a man that cannot see why he is in the wrong through just talking about it, and oddly enough being assaulted and humiliated the way he has inspired a tiny bit of self-reflection, which goes to show that, as unpopular as it is, sometimes a bit of trauma does make you realize what a piece of shit you are. Sometimes, for certain people. It's had mixed results for Minho so far...
What hurts me the most about this manga is Azusa's relationship with his mother. I don't know what led her to dropping out of school and becoming a prostitute, but she has always tried her best to provide for him, even putting up with abuse from her johns. She wants Azusa to have a better life than she does, and he understands that, but.. seeing your mom being abused and not being in a position to do anything about it warps you. It's not his mom's fault, but it's still damaging to a kid. He's sabotaging his own future because of his disregard for school, but school is also a shitty place to be because it's just a simulation of Those in Power Picking on the Less Fortunate.
I only hope Azusa gets out of school and manages to get into college so he can get a job that allows his mom to never need to sell herself again. There's nothing wrong with sex work, mind you, but this isn't safe or healthy sex work, and it's obvious she isn't in a position to be choosy with her clientele. It's just sad all around!! （/TДT)/
This comic flashes back too much back and forth between past and present. The narrative has serious ADHD. Pick a time period and stick with it for a whole chapter.
I agreee, it's so confusung and hard to follow
Come to read the latest chapters and oh man does the author stack on the layers of drama and relationship dodecahedron.
So thus far...(up to chapter 64) [Spoiler]
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Seth <--> Nephthys are married. Isis and Osiris are married. Isis loves Osiris. Osiris wants Seth as a wife but couldn't because he is male and male gods can't create life in the way females can. Osiris secretly steals Seth's fertility knowing that Seth would feel like a failure and knowing that Nephthys, out of wifely duty, would go to Osiris to ask for help. Osiris agrees and helps them make a child, a child which is technically Nephthys and Osiris's, but used with Seth's semen (?). There is also the hint by Osiris that Nephthys is not as in love with Seth as Seth is in love with her, and his love for her is really him being lonely and finding meaning in being a husband and father. Anyway, Seth still feels cheated out of fatherhood, cuckolded and humiliated. He hates that he was used like that and he wavers between loving Anubis and hating what he represents--not Anubis himself, but the means of his conception. He wishes for Anubis to never grow old, perhaps because all the adults around him have proven to be unreliable and untrustworthy? Because he wasn't innocent, but something broke in him the day Osiris raped him? He was not naive to sexual assault, but it being experienced by anyone, especially your brother and so painfully on top of the realization that your family might not actually be yours, knocked something out of place in his head. From then on, Seth has used violence and a cavalier attitude to hide that he's a deeply wounded god. Basically "If I keep moving and fucking around, the bad thoughts won't get me!" Except that his behavior is a direct result of those bad feelings.
Isis hates Seth for being the object of Osiris's affection despite knowing that Seth didn't seduce him or anything. It's irrational victim-blaming borne out of rage and grief. And later that hate is compounded when Seth kills Osiris because that's still her husband and their shared brother, and kin-slaying has always been one of the most major taboos in these ancient societies. Not to mention this makes Seth an usurper. Her anger and hatred is also exacerbated by the fact that Seth decides to do self-care by being a tyrant over Egypt because there is no one he can turn to to talk out his feelings of being raped, lied to, betrayed, etc.
Isis vows to get revenge on Seth for killing her husband and yadda yadda. With Horus being her only object of love left alive, she pours all of her desires, dreams, worries, and pain onto Horus. It is a neurotic, uncomfortable "love" that Horus never felt comfortable with. It was a love borne out of desperation and utility, an emotional crutch that needed to live by her whims because she had big plans. When Horus met Seth, he saw a god that simply wanted something to love. He wanted to be someone who could give love without being dismissed. He told Anubis "You can hate or love me, but don't cast me away." It is also emotionally codependent, but the difference between Isis's love for Horus and Seth's love for Anubis is that Horus is meant to be poetic justice in a grand scheme by Isis--he is meant to represent the downfall of Seth, the unlawful usurper and murderer of Osiris. Seth's love for Anubis is to me at its core "I (Seth) feel like I am fully realized as a person when you acknowledge the love I have for you". A child doesn't use love for their own twisted ends. They accept it without question. That was what Seth wants -- a child that can receive his love and do nothing unsavory with it, but he is willing to compromise with "A son who acknowledges me as his father, a scoundrel, anything that will make him look at me."
Horus saw that love Seth accidentally showed to him (thinking he was Anubis) and wanted it for himself. It was a love that had no prerequisites or expectations, unlike the love Isis had for Horus which can be likened to an uptight mother wanting her son to get in all the best schools without considering what he might want for himself.
So Horus is sort of like his father Osiris with his fixation on Seth--both of them see Seth as beautiful and powerful. I say beautiful because it is gendered toward feminine. It is very interesting because Seth seems to exist in the middle of the spectrum of masculine and feminine. When put up beside the gods, he is portrayed more masculine than the goddesses (and Thoth of course lol), in the presence of Horus he is roughly equal, and in the presence of Osiris he is...not feminized exactly, because he still has the body of a toned man, but his status and presentation as a man becomes much shakier because of what we as readers know about his sexual assault. Osiris feminizes him by raping him and in turn we the readers feminize him because of the association with rape (domination) and masculinity. This is admittedly difficult to articulate...Seth isn't a "pretty boy uke", not at all, but there is a certain fragility that is lent to him because of our association with emotional oppenness (he is very expressive. Cocky, angry, prideful, smug, distraught) and androgynous looks with femininity. Powerful, because he literally is the desert, and the potential of that power is limitless. He is destruction, he is chaos. In Osiris's twisted lovestruck mind, he is something to be tamed and cultivated--a wild stallion to be broken in. For Horus, Seth is a fountain of endless love with which he wishes to quench his thirst.
Yep, those are my thoughts.
Damn
×2
Wow
Yessssss this was why I was skeptical about continuing this because I read a manga before where the uke was raped and his life was basically ruined by the seme, he had no one to turn to and he was made a slut to the whole school because of some rumors being spread about him. I decided to continue reading hoping that the uke would stand up to the seme and give him what he deserves. However, the story continued the same with endless rape before in recent chapters the uke basically became a woman. He looked nothing like he did in previous chapters, his hair was grown out, he was thinner. There was nothing about him that screamed masculine anymore. I remember his friends realized what was happening at the school(the rape and stuff) and rushed to help him but they were made out as the antagonists of the story and weren’t able to save the uke. This kind of story is one I hope to avoid because I am one who loves to see people in unfortunate situations and see how they are able to overcome it, to tell the world that they were strong. So, to see something like that happening in the manga I had read, I hope it isn’t the same for Seth. I admire his power and unforgiving ways to Osiris who is selfish and wants everything to go his way. I mean the dude even cursed him to think he was weak in desperate times so that Osiris could easily overpower Seth. This dude is such a piece of shit that I hope he gets a horrible ending
perfectly put