Because the quality of chapter was so good. And we see a flashback like that after so long. But I just feel so disgusted beyond words for what happened to her in her first life. She is just too damaged. Too hurt. There is nothing wrong in doing things that will save one from further hurt. She wants stability, she doesnt care about the rest of things. Because she has already lost all those things that ppl oh so truly want her to hold onto. She doesnt desire control in situations she know she wont get a control in. If i were her, i would have killed myself too. Damn. I just feel so bad for her.