beta
I get that you have been traumatized....I understand.... but to treat someone like an after thought and aspect things will go your way regardless is wild.
You don't deny not a single one of your behaviors towards her yet you assume you are going to be forgiven if you START to do better just because you didn't initially see something that you WANTED to see in your fiance but you didn't even TRY to get to know her in her entirety though I'm grateful to the book for awakening kind part of her that she never got to explore.
Instead you lead her on and kept guessing instead of making things clear....horrible.