bluee

Guys i'm so tired right now, i just want to let everything out of my chest. I want to do it here 'cause i really like this community (yep ya all i'm a fujoshi as well. Been for almost 7 years now) i didn't even tell my friends about my problem ( i don't want it to spread or some shit "you know how it goes").

So, i'm at a big period of my life. I'm 23 years old and almost done with my studies so a lot of assignments to do and a night shift part time job to keep.

Beside being stressed out for my studies (which is normal) and lacking sleep #－.－) i have (unfortunately after 4 years of peace) a crush on this guy in my class. IN MY CLASS!

I feel like a high school student or something...

well,

we've been in the same course since last year but i didn't really pay too much attention to him at first. this year i dunno why but he caught my interest.

It went out like this:

I was too early for my morning class, so when i saw that the theater was still dark i left, but that might have seemed too weird/offensive because the guy have been giving me weird (sad? confused?) stares after that. (note: he was behind me and i forgot he was there)

I'm pretty sensitive with people' stares (i have always been) so i didn't want him to think i hated him or something. HOWEVER! since i'm an introvert and weird af i may have been clumsy with my way of showing it (i may or may have not stared at him too much "yes that's creepy as hell (￣∇￣") but i didn't know what to do (i stared at him thinking about it) I never talked to him before so i couldn't just go to him and tell him straight out I didn't hate him. After that, i think he thought i had a crush on him and been staring at me too (at that time i started taking care of my apparence too, not because of him tho, I just felt like it) .

After noticing that, i didn't help but find him cute and now I have a crush on him even if i never talked to him.

The problem is whenever i had a crush on someone i went to them and asked them out myself (I got rejected every time and it helped me to move on) but sine he's in my class, i don't want things to spread and be humiliated for the rest of my college years.

He's cute and all and i thought for a short time he had a crush on me since he was staring at me sometimes but he's not trying to be around me and didn't make a move or talk to me so i just go with the fact that he just do that 'cause he thought i had a crush on him before...

note: I stopped staring at him now so now i think he thinks i'm not interested when in reality i am (ironic right!)

fluffy fact: We were in class and we shouted the same answer at the same time.

I don't know what to do. For once i don't want to make the first move and i'm tired of this situation.

What do i do guys? should i just give up? that's so hard too.....I'm depressed and stressed out everyday because of this.
Although i've been asked out before I've never been in a relationship so i have no experience in dating or what so ever.....

HELP (⊙…⊙ )