I thought he loved her since college
He fell in love now??
I think he was just in denial this whole time
he's just too focused on being someone who doesn't deserve love, so he keeps on denying his feelings toward hoyeon, but he realizes it just now. tbh, its better than some others stories who only realizing their feelings after a hundred chapters or so.
I'm- what-
author-san why did you think rape is a good idea here