I feel seen. This is the most relatable MC I’ve ever read. I know it’s not a good thing but… god I’ve been down those thought patterns so many times
Immediately anticipating and accepting a breakup as an inevitable eventuality any time you start dating…
No gifts / favors / anything that might make you indebted to or dependent on a person your dating
Accepting and internalizing shitty behavior of others as your own fault. Any rejection is your own damn fault.