kittykizzy

I truly feel sympathy for Rezef. He's a complex and traumatized person. This doesn't mean he shouldn't face the consequences of his actions or that he deserves the most horrible death imaginable. He's not redeemable either, or at least not anymore. But things could have played out so much more differently. He wasn't a crazy lunatic like the Duke who wanted power for selfish reasons. He didn't even originally want the crown, because he knew that was not his rightful place. All he wanted was a warm and loving family. His mother died, whom we don't even know was affectionate to him. He didn't have a nanny like Cayena. He couldn't seek the comfort of his own biological father's arm when the king abused him for his entire childhood. He only did what he had to for survival, and then gradually became twisted. In their first lifetime, he thought his sister had given up on him, hence why he mistreated her and never helped her. "She deserves this. You deserted me and wanted to replace me. You are no longer my family. I have none." However in their second life, she gave him hope again. But it was too late to redeem Rezef because the path he chose to walk was riddled with thorns and the sword he picked up was long broken. Perhaps if Cayena had returned far sooner in the past, if she hadn't forgotten the abuse and neglect they went through, or if their parents were better people who never blamed children for their parents' wrongdoings, then maybe the siblings could have turned out better. They wouldn't have been so obsessed with other people-Rezef fixated on the crown and Cayena; Cayena on Raf. Or even if their parents had married the right people from the start, then this could have all been avoided. This goes for the former Duke and Duchess as well. No child should carry the sins that their parents committed. I believe this is what caused the Duke to be sick coming into contact with people. Deep down, he was afraid that people would be disgusted with him. He believed that he was a curse. Because his father loathed his mother's family for forcing marriage upon him, to have him create an heir. If his parents couldn't give him love and affection and was constantly faced with pressure from others to quickly grow up and secure the Duke's position, it only makes sense that his trauma surfaced as disgust with coming into contact with people.

its been 10 years and we are finally reaching some climax!! maybe now kuon can face his trauma, no longer needing ren. don't know when kyoko gets that break in her character to become a real actress, hopefully soon. if kuon can face his past sooner, kyoko can become a full fledged recognized actress sooner, can let go of her grievances with shou, and then kuon and her can finally be an open couple!!