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Just found out I share the same bday as the rapist from jinx (idk if he is an abuser I refuse to read that) and I think he did in fact jinx my bad cus I went from happy to hating my day... great!

There is this misconception with shounen ai that it's just cute non smutty, less toxic yaoi. Which is wrong. Just because someone has no sa or physical abuse dosent mean the story isnt toxic asf.

And ( now it had changed but a few years before) most shounen ai are mistagged asf. Tagging sth as *fluffy*, just because the characters are in school is going to give the reader mixed messages.

An example of this is never understand. All the comments were saying how cute it was but when I read it....like it was just underlined bulling and emotional abuse from all sides. The seme literally almost beats him up in one point?!? And admits hes using him just to solve his inner messed up trauma he has with *ugly people* and I'm not taking about the beggining, he tries to alienate from his family. Also the seme friends ALWAYS give him backhanded compliments is uncomfy, and the same knows btw and dosent care. Also I'm not even talking about how the uke uke almost gets SA and the seme thinks hes cheating instead of idk?!?! Helping?!?! There's also some side characters who are also just messed up in my opinion, and no im not even talking about the bullies im not going there.

If you like it that's ok I get it. I mean I kinda dont but let's be real with each other.

ive been in a closet for many many years and i live in a very conservative country and so are my friends and family, but the more years go, the more i feel in pain and i dont want to lie to those who are precious to me. i wanted to come out to my friends but again they are not very open minded about gay people and just today i had a homophobic conversation....ugh idk what to do... i love my friends so much tho and ik they love me too. but i never have told anyone ever that im queer even though all these years. it hurts a lot i cant do it anymore