
DAMN THE NOVEL WAS TOO PAINFUL TO READ WTF

oh its still ongoing tho, if we see chap 54/55 its a bittersweet ending but theres a new arc so...
spoiler
in the latest life, ilya sees a dream at her last moments when she was lying there in the forest after getting stabbed, the dream is of her second life thru crow's eyes/pov?, when she commited suicide bcuz her bitchass sister got pregnant with her shit face fiance's child. she never thought that anyone will care for her even after her death but she sees crow actually visited her at that time and he even came thru the main entrace introducing himself as ilya's friend so that he can show that ilya was not alone, she had ally too, she was locked up in her room and when the bitchass sister opened the door of her room for crow she was already dead, her sister started screaming and shxts so the servants turned a blind eye to ilya (who was actually hanging dead) and were worried for her pregnant sister, no one cared abt her except crow, he even brought her dead body with him after wrapping it with a bedsheet, he kept crying holding her dead body and after that even travelled many worlds searching for her for years (every life is from different world, when ilya dies in one world, her soul transfers to the ilya of another world and she experiences another life, ig this is confusing). After this dream, she opens her eyes and sees crow was there, crying (apparently he found her atlast but it was too late), he's shocked when ilya opens her eyes bcoz he thought sje was already dead, so ilya vows to be with crow and decides that if she'll experience another life she'll let go of soleil (hand him over to her sister) and be with crow
SO IG IF THE AUTHOR ENDED IT HERE WE COULD'VE CONSIDER IT A HAPPY ENDING BUT SINCE THE NEW ARC IS STARTED I THINK SHE'LL DIE AND START HER LIFE AGAIN, AND SHE HAS ALREADY MADE THE VOW SO MAYBE SHE'LL CHOOSE CROW IN THIS LIFE, I HOPE WE GET TO SEE THE FIANCE AND SISTER SUFFER THO AND IM SORRY FOR MAKING IT CONFUSING LOL
fuck tatara, all my homies hate tatara and since i love my homies, i hate tatara