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You get it

we (I?) honestly need a story time, dear

You can't leave us hanging after saying that

(Btw guys when i said similar i mean about the heartbreak not the plot exactly so yea)
Okay so story time
For the whole19 years of my life i never fell in love with anyone my whole life until last year where i met a guy we had science class together ans we grew close pretty quick
We became really good friends especially after we learned that we lived in the same neighborhood
Fast forward to this year i realized that i had feelings for him but i did my best to hide it and i doubt he noticed it
We flirt with each other sometimes but i always say to myself that it doesn't mean anything to him probably and yadda yadda yadda
He's a really great person and a great friend and even tho i always say to myself that he only thinks of me as a friend the way he acts and talk around me made me delusional and said maybe there's a chance but i was too scared to do anything in fear of ruining this friendship
Two weeks ago he came to me and said that there's a girl who liked him
They went on a date but he said that he only sees her as a friend and nothing more and for the whole to weeks he kept on asking me jow to tell her no without being an asshole
Yesterday he came and told me that they became official
Tbh i was so confused and a bit mad at him(I don't know exactly why) causw it literally came out of nowhere
I was extremely hurt cause if he told me that he might date her and all I would've prepared myself emotionally and not be hurt as much
And after he told me that he came to my house and we went on a stroll and all and it was really hard to act like nothing was wrong
I feel bad cause i don't feel happy at all about seeing him happy with her and i feel like I'm a bad friend on top of that but today when he talked about her and how his date went with her and all i tried my best to be supportive and act like i usually do but inside i felt like shit
Maybe I'm being overly sensitive cause it's my first love and all but this chapter hit hard either ways lol

Thank you for sharing dear, we appreciate you. :)

Now, as for your concerns, I can't help but give you my opinion LOL. Bear with me :

1. Don't blame yourself for being unhappy. It's very understandable because you wish things had turned out differently. You're not being selfish because you're not acting against him.
=> While there's jealousy in your heart because of your love, you're not letting it overcome your sense, which is ideal. :)
2. You're doing a good job as a friend by putting his happiness ahead of your feelings. Masking them in front of him must be hard, but that's what great friends do. You're really kind and selfless, that's good!
3. You're not too sensitive, as I've said: your feelings are also important, and taking them in account is essential so that you don't spill over.

Good luck managing all those emotions.

Thank u dear i really appreciate it
I actually feel a bit better after talking about this lol cause i didn't tell anyone about my feelings towards him so i feel a bit better now

Yeah hun, understandable:) keeping it all in isn't a good idea : you deserve to let it out. I'm glad it made you feel better.

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