shoujo_sakura's Manga

Review:
Oh this was so good. Such a high quality bl. My favorite part of this story is how it didn't only focus on the romance aspect but focused on the overall developments of the main characters and others, their problems and how it built who they are. I love that the second guy I was rooting to was the ending for the mc. Furthermore, I love how I was okay with mc ending up with either of the two because they were both good. The story felt like it so much depth with how diligent the author was in trying to deliver her final messages of this story. And from beginning to the end, nothing felt like it wasn't well thought of. There are certain twists of stories that I wished turned this way or that, but stories like this doesn't make me strongly feel like that. The characters felt alive - their actions just made sense. Despite the tragedy, I love the ending. (Spoiler) Even though the old man yaoi ended tragically with ml dying first, I love that it set up with mc getting along with his family before he also died. Making him realize that he wasn't all that full of regret.




Summary(oh shit it's gonna be fucking long hahaha my lazyass)



68 yrs old Seungtae found out he could communicate with his 19 yrs old self. Old Seungtae believes he had lived his life full of regrets, and the biggest of them is being gay and another is Jihoo hyung. 68 yrs old Seungtae has always had trouble with his identity, and refuses to acknowledge being gay. Yet he chose to run away with Jihoo. But on the day they were supposed to run away. Jihoo gets killed and their relationship ended in tragedy. Old Seungtae used the opportunity given to him through his diary to change the past and save Jihoo. As he suffers through dementia, he tells his young self what he should do. 19 yrs old Seungtae was a responsible guy. The time is sent in 1969. In Korea, the war wasn't that long, families were mostly patriarchal and being gay brings shame and ostracization from your community. Seungtae also lived his life like that. He reunites with his childhood friend, and became slightly close again. He then remembers that the reason the that he drifted apart from him is because when they were young, there was a time he realized that Yeonny looks at him differently from his other normal friends and he as well feel different emotion from normal. Filled with family problems, Seungtae learns of the future from the diary and then meets Jihoo, where he finds himself falling for Jihoo. Their first meeting was peculiar with Jihoo and Yeonny meeting him as he disguised himself as an old beggar. He saves the two from being attacked by the beggars and the two also helps him get ttreated in the hospital as he had injuries from his previous living. Since then, Jihoo feels indebted to the two and continues to pay the hospital bill they spent on him to repay it, despite the two's refusal. Jihoo then started living in Seungtae's house as a boarder. There was an ongoing serial murder incident at that time, Old Jihoo suggests that the killer may be responsible of Jihoos death. Jihoo's friend, Hye, also stayed in Geumho for Jihoo and there's a spark of rivalry of him with mc because of Jihoo. Yeonny points out MC's feeling which mc aggressively denies being gay. Causing a drift to the two. But later on the two reconciled as they face the impending issue of the 3rd murder. The victim was a middle schools girl and old Seungtae asks his young self to help her safe the girl. Young Seungtae asks help from others in this, and with Yeonny, Jihoo, Hye they were able to stop the murder and capture the serial murderer. But the the series of event was different from the future. As the original target survived it was Yeonny's sister that was indeed almost in danger. This wasn't a good sign. Seungtae's older brother also comes home and caused Jihoo to leave Seungtae's house to stay with Hye. Seungtae's older brother is also one of their suspect. Hye and Seungtae's relationship changed as Seungtae confesses but Jihoo tries not to reciprocate his feeling. Though, the two had a talk of running away together just like tin the past. As Old Seungtae continues to investigate about the future. He learned that the suspect wasn't only his older brother, Hey but there was also anotjer guy which Jihoo hid from others. And it was Sun Jae, Jihoo's cousin whom he had helped raise when he was young. Jihoo was adopted by his aunt and uncle after his parents died from the war. He got close to a boy and soon their relationship turned more than just friend but one night, the boy and his whole family from their house burning. And Jihoo's suspect was Sun Jae. So he ran away from at 14 and travelled here and there where he meets Hye. Hye was twisted but Jihoo still chose to be friends with him. When Seungtae's older brother hurt Jihoo. Hey captured him and tortured him but not to death. Later on, Sunjae and Yeonny finds this hideout and was instead captured and locked in the warehouse as well. In this meantime, Seungtae realizes how Yeonny was always there for him and realizes that he was also important to his life. Seungtae and Jihoo was able to save the three. And Jihoo knowing it was Hye's action, cut ties with Hye causing Hye to be triggered. Jihoo run away and talks with Seungtae, he asks Seungtae to run away with him but he no longer takes the offer as he realizes his feelings for Yeonny. Sun Jae witnessed this and burns Seungtae's house in the night, thankfully not one died. But Jihoo knows who the culprit is. Old Seungtae finds out that through Jihoo's mom that Sun Jae had confessed killing Jihoo. And informs his past self despite his weak state. With the help of Hye, the two were able to save Jihoo. Jihoo was actually planning to kill himself with Sun Jae. As he acknowledges that Sunjae was a psychopath who enjoyed killing things. The four were saved at the end. Jihoo decided to step into a relationship with Yeonny. And Jihoo decided to leave Guemhae with Hye, the two will continue to wander. At the end,Jihoo was saved but we learn that it's in a parallel world. And old Jihoo's life doesn't really change. OldYeonny decided to stay at Seungtae's side and Seungtae realizes his feelings with Yeonny and remain grateful to Yeonny love and loyalty to him despite so many years. But OldYeonny dies fiest and in his despair, Seungtae cries as he says that his life was full of regrets. He was saved by his son from dicing to death and reconciles with his family before his death.