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And I hate being this way, it's one of the things I want to change about myself but can't. But I'm just so emotionally repressed that I can't even express adoration and love to people I love seriously. I'd always mask it as a joke to lessen the impact and intensity of the seriousness of it. Or if it's too real, I just never show or say anything at all. This is a real issue, not just fiction