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Do you guys prefer to read a manga with or without blcd?
cuz there are pros and cons for both of that

I'm not talking about light-hearted teasing or playful motions. I want some manga with a physically and/or verbally abusive seme with a twisted form of love. The uke can totally accept it, like the Camelia, or be beaten down until broken like some of Harada's work.
I like the second choice more, but any of the two is fine. Actually, I really just want to cry by reading yaoi mangas lol.
Thanks for anything!