Irkarium's Things

I guess Ill start with my own story,and also ask for some advice.
A little after opening what I thought was my last Christmas present my dad told me that one more of my presents is running late. Fast forward to today,and the present finally came - it was a knitted anime doll. Now as I am a huge anime fan this is the part where even I would think that Id feel overjoyed..but I dont and that has been bugging me to the point where I feel like crying my eyes out.
The doll is from an anime I have never seen and is a character I had never even heard of. I googled it right away because I knew that questions like "do you know it " or " Do you like it " will come flooding in,and they did ,and I acted like I liked it the whole time but I still have this awful feeling ,like Im a horrible person for not liking something that was literally made just for me.
Now that I have gone to my room to think about it in peace ,Im even thinking about watching that anime just so I can at least feel better by knowing who this character actually is,and what shes like but form what MAL can tell me shes some shojo romcom main , and the only romance I have enjoyed seeing in the past 2 years are those between guys cuz Im a fulltime fujoshi...