Just a heads up we’re getting 14 chapters of flashbacks from Heejae POV.
Maybe it’s because I’m autistic myself but I see the alyxithimya as a symptom not a cause. The arguments they have are almost textbook to conversation I’ve had before. The inability to lie even if it’s a “white” lie as well is textbook autism. So in that sense I find him to be a realistic and compelling character rather than a red flag. I know intentions matters little when you hurt someone but truth be told it’s a lot easier said than done to be able to perfectly tell what your partner is thinking or feeling all the time. Honestly most of the arguments they have would arise in most healthy neurotypical relationships as well. Anyways just my two cents feel free to downvote.
No raws I just read the novel on booktoki
Rejoice! We get a long make out sesh and Seyeong freaks out because he’s into it, runs out of the house. Some chapters later, he gets super embarrassed for being jealous of Yuna and goes to hide in the bathroom. We then get a scene where he finally asks Hee-jae why he likes him and since when. Then we get Heejae POV of ALL the previous chapters. How he was suspicious of Sesam (Seyeong’s avatar in the game) from the start because the gear and clothing she wore used to be popular in the game a year prior. How he knew that “noona” was a guy since he saw her ID and that’s how he figured out where he lived as well etc. Initially he was just going to play a joke on him and leave him like he abandoned him. But he found his own behaviour contradictory. Finally, when we have that snowy scene with Hee-jae chasing after Seyeong in the snow, and him kicking the car. That’s when he realised he loved him, hence why he was screaming into the air. He was frustrated and promised himself he was gonna get Seyeong to fall in love with him too just so he can feel as conflicted as he did. After this, the flashback ends and Seyeong softens quite a bit, even let’s Heejae drop him off and pick him up from work. But he struggles a lot internally because even though he realises he liked Heejae back, he fears intimacy (with anyone, even if “he were a woman”). Basically, buckle up because the flashback chapter are gonna be looong. But worth it, let’s just say that one night he slept over at Seyong’s he might’ve done some things...
Getting whiplash reading this, is the infamous power of p***y because make it make sense that he’s supposedly in love with someone else has rejected her for years and now all of a sudden he’s obsessed with FL. ALSO THE TOE THING. YUCK.
she used her secret weapon, muhaha ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄
it'd make much more sense later on, bear with it.
Parental figure and parent is not the f*cking same. One is daddy issues and the other is incest. The dragon mate one is so much worse than this.