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creamcham April 14, 2025 7:26 am

this is a solid 8/10 for me i think. there are some things i can't exactly come to terms with but i really enjoy how all the characters are written!!! heiner is a well fleshed-out ml whose terrible backstory actually gives him substance beyond being cold/ sad and annette is a unique fl in that she isn't physically/mentally strong but there is emotional strength and kindness in a way that's very human and very rare to see in a webtoon of this style. the depth of the writing is impressive, and there was very little i thought was too tropey or contrived though there was exaggeration (which is fine for a fictional story).

i know a lot of people hate heiner, but i believe with all my heart that he doesn't deserve that. it's true that the way he treated her was reprehensible and that he doesn't deserve full pardon for the way he acted, but i think that he deserves sympathy and also understanding (which is what he was so desperately wishing for from annette, and what he began to finally get. though his past does not excuse his actions, i think his backstory was done extremely well. he was an orphan, sent into cruel military training and treated as an expendable tool of war. all he's known is pain, suffering, and abuse. he's never received love, so it's hard for him to give it, and hard for him to understand it. he's unable to reconcile his hatred for annette's father with his deep adoration for her, and he's unable to separate the way he saw her for his whole life (as almost a saintlike figure) with everything he's been through, too. he believes he's dirty and broken while she was a pure, bright existence, and he though it seems at parts like he's resentful of her i think he was just more desperate for her to understand his pain.

all these things culminate in the way he treated her; he was unable to let himself love her and instead subjected himself and annette to suffering because he didn't know what else to do, which is honestly very sad. in some later chapters we can see him come to multiple realizations that he loved her, and that his love is also broken, "grotesque", and almost an "obsession"- which is. sometimes just how love is. twisted and painful and miserable. because feelings can be hard and that's fine- he just couldn't understand this and couldn't express any of that. he's such a pitiable, contradictory character. he loves her, he inflicts pain on her, he can't bear to see her suffer. he seems like such an ass but the story gives you so much context for why he's like this and you can't help but be sympathetic. he's had such a miserable existence; he has so much blood on his hands. everything he ever cared about was ripped from him, so it's not hard to see why he clings to her so much while also holding himself back from doing anything that would show her that he loved her. i can't forgive him for the pain he caused annette to go through, but at the same time i can't resent him ... because i can understand him. it's so sad. they're so sad. they love each other so much and their love is so real but the circumstances and differences in how they've lived create such a terrible dichotomy and have forced them apart.

even so ... the development between them is incredible. annette's desperation to become a better person because of heiner's wish for her to live and also her own desire to find purpose beyond what she believes gave her substance before is really beautiful. it's rare to see a fl run away and it's even rarer to see one grow so much over the course of a story. she's one of my favorite fls of all time. her development is so heartfelt and wonderful ... the bit about how she was able to reclaim piano for herself after being physically unable to play and wishing thar it could bring people comfort was beautiful, and her kindness towards everyone is just. man. i love her. i love this story. it's not perfect, but it's emotional and it feels almost human. the two of them are star-crossed lovers and it hurts to see them hurt each other but their development as people and the way the story is bringing them together is really wonderful. also it's so rare to see a ml say that he'll never see a fl ever again and actually try and uphold that. +5 to heiner for that!! sorry for the long post ... i was Feeling things.

    hachiware April 18, 2025 1:51 am

    this articulated my thoughts perfectly

creamcham February 28, 2025 12:19 am

here's the novel for anyone who wishes to read it .... ithink the novel continues up from where we are in the manwha around 65/70? don't take my word on that but just a warning it's so much worse/graphic than the manwha is OTL the ml deserves zeeero sympathy or forgiveness https://www.novelupdates.com/series/double-junk/?pg=1#myTable

    isee / icy February 28, 2025 5:32 am

    Hi can you hit me with a truck so that i would get teleported in their world and ill punch that fugly bitchass ML cuz i hate him

    creamcham February 28, 2025 7:30 am
    Hi can you hit me with a truck so that i would get teleported in their world and ill punch that fugly bitchass ML cuz i hate him isee / icy

    DUUUDE ME TOO i hate him sooo much .. what he does to ahjin is like 20x worse in the novel. and he has the audacity to say stuff in future chapters like "it should've been me hurt, not him" like he's not the reason why ahjin's in the hospital in the first place ????

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creamcham January 27, 2025 2:46 am

hii does anyone know of good bl with angst? i want stuff that'll really make me cry :p i feel like i've read everything so if anyone has any hidden gems or anything please share!! if not then i'll take any recs if there's a black-haired uke lol ^^

tatsuhiko July 11, 2021 1:53 am

do you guys know the exact name of the font used in manga? does that make sense .. um .. like the font name? like how comic sans is one type and times new roman is another .. does anyone have the name of the one commonly used for translations of japanese manga? like for example the font in "koi wo suru tsumori wa nakatta"? please let me know if you do know i like it a lot and want to use it in some stuff of my own

    mafuyushairpins July 11, 2021 1:55 am

    wild words i believe or at least something similar

    Shizuna July 11, 2021 2:07 am

    I think it was Comic Sans MS. When used in a thought bubble, theyre in itallic. But again, im not sure. Theres a font detector in the webs you can use if youre curious tho.

    Yao-shi the gaylien potato July 11, 2021 2:25 am

    Font in the Koi wo suru are definitely not Comic sans, I think it's better to avoid using that font in any manga unless your leader tell you so or if it's necessary.

    It's either Wild word or Tim Sales.

    A side notes: you can check constipation font in Scanlation school discord. There, you can get many font pack for series scanlating

    Slim Shady July 11, 2021 2:51 am

    It’s not comic sans it’s wild words

    Yao-shi the gaylien potato July 11, 2021 2:54 am

    If you need any help, I can help with the best I can

    tatsuhiko July 11, 2021 3:57 am
    It’s not comic sans it’s wild words Slim Shady

    oh no i know that i was just using it as an example

    tatsuhiko July 11, 2021 3:58 am
    Font in the Koi wo suru are definitely not Comic sans, I think it's better to avoid using that font in any manga unless your leader tell you so or if it's necessary.It's either Wild word or Tim Sales.A side not... Yao-shi the gaylien potato

    no i know that!! i was just using it as an example i would never touch comic sans even if my life depended on it ... and i'm not using it to typeset in scanlations haha i'm using it for personal art projects ^__^ thank you though!!

    tatsuhiko July 11, 2021 3:59 am
    I think it was Comic Sans MS. When used in a thought bubble, theyre in itallic. But again, im not sure. Theres a font detector in the webs you can use if youre curious tho. Shizuna

    oh oooooh i had no idea there was such a thing as font detector .. thank you!!

    tatsuhiko July 11, 2021 3:59 am
    wild words i believe or at least something similar mafuyushairpins

    thats what a couple of other people said as well so i'll take your word! thank you ^__^

    vaneella July 11, 2021 6:13 am

    Standard ones would be Wild Words or Anime Ace but check out blambot (dot) com, they offer many free comic fonts too

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