I've kinda dubbed it situational anxiety. Bc my "anxiety" only happens when doing really specific things, and there's clear triggers, such as grocery shopping. I cry almost every time or have to find a quiet spot to compose myself. And god halp omfg halp if someone tries to talk to me during it. Or ordering at the counter of a shop, I just can't. (I cried last Sunday bc someone in the meat isle tried to give me advice on meat and I couldn't say no, and then another came and I was just incapable of communicating properly and I was legit having an anxiety attack, I feel rly bad for them bc it was obvious I was about to start crying and I know I made them uncomfortable, I just idk, I couldn't do it, much sorry if you're reading this, it's not your fault, I'm just a mess.)
But it doesn't affect me with things like answering questions in class, or getting homework done, plus I've been in numerous leadership positions and "high stress" situations without having any issues. Like, most ppl tell me I have a very assertive nature by default, and only those close know that sometimes I call them while grocery shopping bc if I don't I'm going to panic. If I drive with someone I'm fine btw, or if someone is with me, it's onyl when I;m alone.
I'm only asking bc the other day my prof. was going over some personality assignments we'd filled out, and my sociability score was 5/11 and she was all, may as well trash that bc I don't believe any of your results are accurate after hearing that. (she said it with humor, but I felt like crying, it was the first time anyone had said ANYTHING like that to me before.)
So I blurted out "It's bc I have anxiety" and she froze and was like oh, I wouldn't have pinned you for that.
And to be fair, it's never been diagnosed (bc I'm afraid to go talk about my issues with someone and it's too expensive), and I have suffered some major traumas (car wrecks, abuse, rape, blah blah), but I don't consider them to be defining factors in my everyday life or the reasoning behind my anxiety.
Anyways, does anyone else experience something like this? Like have something that fucks them up (not trauma but just weird instinctive behaviors like freaking out in a grocery store)?
That's probably a phobia
Hmm, I thought that at first, but it's not just grocery stores, and I'm not afraid, just super duper stressed out.
phobias are anxiety disorders, it could be a fear ( or stress) of confronting people alone in a certain environment, honestly even if its just one visit, try to visit a clinical profession so you could at least get a diagnoses
I cant confidently say this though since we haven't done psychopathology in my psychology class yet
I see, thank you for the advice :) If/when I see someone I'll update with whatever tf is wrong lol
My friend and I (mostly me since they're editing), came up with an idea for a book, and I wanna know if it's shit or not.
Cafe owner, opens a cafe, and it ends up being the attraction of many odd sorts, especially goths and people of the sort, but the cafe owner doesn't know why, and has a very "devil may care" attitude.
We're thinking of just having it like a while bunch of one shots, snippets into the cafe from the view of the owner.
Thoughts?
Personally it really depends on preferences on wether or not it’s good idea. I just don’t know where you’re going in terms of plotline. To me it’s not my cup of tea. Perhaps the story could revolve around the people that go to that cafe. Perhaps the cafe owner gets involved with the clients stories somehow.
release it asap (▰˘◡˘▰)
mm! that's kinda the idea we're going with actually!
That sounds great!!! When you publish it please send me a link, I'd love to read it :D
Could be interesting depending on what route you take but your description is quite vague right now, so it's hard to form an opinion on it -- like someone mentioned earlier, there's no plotline to really judge. Also sidenote -- If you're planning to do a series of one-shots, what's the incentive for people to continue reading each new chapter if it's mostly snippets? There should be something that ties each chapter together that creates at an underlying plot, even if it's vague. If you don't plan to connect the chapters in any way, then your writing style should be either really unique, or the characters should be extremely interesting to compensate. Just my two cents, good luck with your book!
Ah! You make a really good point. I wrote the first thing (?) chapter, character following(??) tonight. My friend is gonna make some edits, after that I'll put it on here to be evaluated. It's probably gonna be VERY slice of life, following the activities of a cafe owner and their customers.
What, no bara for you? lul
But what about realism and grit?!
Fair enough whatever floats your boat! I like my characters and stories with depth though it isn’t bad to have hot characters I just find that in the real world not everyone’s going to be perfect, shiny, and pretty all the time like bishounens and bishoujos
Ever heard of the phrase: kill them with kindness :)
Sounds good, looking forward to it whenever you decide to post!
Actually, we came up with a really interesting concept of describing everyone excluding MC, so we don't even know if MC's gender yet hahaha
lol I got no time for that
Ah, so the first chapter is up, I wanted to know your thoughts :)
http://www.mangago.zone/thing/about/58216/
I think he should hire 4 part timers :D
Ah!! Thank you for reading!
Thank you so much for reading it!!
Hahaha, right? I didn't know what to name him and my friend/editor was like lol, just name him after a viking thing, all I could think of was a scandinavian book i read once where a kid was called Wulf, and i was like, okay how's Wolfe, and we both couldn;t stop laughing, and this is my long winded rambling way of saying thank you for reading and giving feedback!
You’re making me feel like making my own manga but I’m bad at drawing
I was looking forward to it anyway!!!
Aws! I can't draw either, it's why I type hahah (^.^)'
Thank you for reading!!
Fuck
So, while I walk home from my last class on Tuesday nights, a late night class, I like to listen to them smooth vibes of AOMG and other awesome Korean raps, idk, it's calming, let me live my life.
BUT TODAY I MADE A MISTAKE
My ankle is almost healed so I was kinda jamming to the smooth vibes of Barcode (honestly 10/10). I MADE A MISTAKE DOING THIS
MY NEIGHBORS SAW ME DANCING AND AS I WAS ENTERING MY APARTMENT SAID
"smooth moves"
i'm so embarrassed, kms.
I'm crying. I want to die.
when i was younger i thought that my mom was coming home while she was in her car so i waved and called her out but the car kept going so i started running after it for a bit. Then the car stopped in front of my crushes house who lived few houses away and then he came out and looked weirdly at me. I get yo feelings we both made mistakes
My heart goes out to you
STRAIGHT R.I.P
In highschool my friend's skirt got caught under her bag so everyone behind her could see her panties. '^' (fortunately, there wasn't a lot of people in her street.)
I'd just fucking cry tbh.
Okay, I read this one a while ago so i'ma try and sum up what I remember
mc is a dude
gets his magic power tested
he's powerful I think(?)
he chooses tamer
goes to a school and has to take some sort of entrance exam
he manages to take this big wolf thing?
and then later in the series there's like an arena scene to see which section of the school gets funding and he wins it
I think he learns some other type of magic too later on, like a shadow thing? that part is fuzzy.
I finally found it!! Versatile mage XD
Okay, so I remember reading this manga about some guy who goes to a magic school, and gets assigned the magic of being a tamer, he has like a exam where he has to tame a wolf thing, and he does. I can't remember it's name and none of my searches have turned anything up. Anyone have any ideas?
OKAY I know I know. This is one I read a while back but I'm craving a re-read and I cannot find it in my read list anywhereeeee:
Supernatural yaoi, Uke is some sort of restore-re and seme leads a team (has some ability to kill anything/reverse anything). Uke accidentally turned his friends into zombies after getting sucked into a gate together. If anyone knows this one, please... I've been searching for like 4 hours now.
i think its a trace of wonder
https://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/1665279/
wait shit mb i linked the list instead of the actual thing
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/a_trace_of_the_wonder/