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Zhong Wan is a fallen noble.. He was adopted by the Emperor's brother.. Emperor assassinated his brother and sold Zhong Wan as a slave.. Yu Ziyou bought him.. They were classmates before the calamity..

Zhong was the youngest candidate to pass the imperial exam.. But as a slave he lost the right to take the exam or any job ever again.. Yu Ziyou actually released Zhong Wan from slavery.. But Zhong Wan left his slave documents to him..

Emperor sent his dead brother's children to the border.. So Zhong Wan escaped to take care of them.. To relieve poverty and get some bribe he spread the rumour that he was Yu Ziyou's lover..

Yu Ziyou was actually the Emperor's son.. so he was drugged by his fake father (his mom's husband) for seven years and thus has a nasty temper.. But unlike any other motherfucker princes in other stories, Yu Ziyou is very tolerant to others..

He has a self-harming tendency, but never took it out on others.. One of my most liked royal character whatsoever.. Anyway Zhong Wan is back to the capital now.. He was already poisoned by his adopted brother Xuan Rui.. That's why he is so weak now..

I'd suggest to read the novel.. It's quite good.. A bit slow maybe.. Link below:

https://www.novelupdates.com/series/those-years-in-quest-of-honour-mine/

if you actually liked this, you should try listening to true crime podcasts or anything true crime related, if you want to talk abt true crime, PLEASE hmu, cuz it's so fucking interesting, disgusting but interesting. and pls do not think that YOU are disgusting, we just find different things interesting and that's ok. btw don't romanticize tc nor ks.

might be cuz i read to quickly but in that chap, isis is actually cursing 4 people (seth, osiris, nephthys and herself) by rendering each of them to not achieve what they crave most.

for nephthys, it’s death (do u crave death)
for seth, it’s anubis’ safety (do u crave family)
for osiris, it’s seth himself (do u crave seth)
and finally, herself, it’s osiris.

like i just finally understood that (pls dont attack me i just want to share my thoughts on the topic) nephthys wont ever have death, seth wont have anubis, osiris wont ever have seth and isis will never have osiris BIG OOF

The plot:

A blue haired guy in high school turns out to be a weakling, deficient dragon that secretly ran away from home in the dragon world, coming down to earth and passing for a human teenager in order to search for a powerful long-lost magical pearl, that he believes can help him become like all the other "normal" dragons, by giving him the powers he lacks. The pearl belonged to an ancient, long-dead evil dragon, and the reason this blue deficient dragon wants the pearl is because he needs the pearl's power to be able to survive his oncoming "magical trial", a test that all magic users go through (including dragons). This magic trial is sent by the Will of Heaven (or Nature, or whatever you call it) to gauge the "worthiness" of each and all magic users, including of all dragons and all the other beings (nonhuman and human) who cultivate "qi" ("qi" as in the "magical" energy in all of nature) in order to become stronger. (In this kind of world, all beings with supernatural abilities, aka "magic", are cultivators of qi, by default). These tests are like a natural phenomena that happens on is own, to each and all magic users, every once in a while, especially whenever a magic user has managed to reach a new power level. Because they're natural phenomena that results from the natural development of each being's magic, they happen naturally and are practically unavoidable.

The thing is, the disguised blue dragon (AoAo), who's posing as a high school student, ends up bumping into someone who claims to know him from before: a black western dragon (Ryan), who's ALSO posing as a human and pretending to be another "ordinary" high school student. Though the blue dragon can't remember it, he and the western dragon met once back when both were kids, at that time when the little blue dragon first tried to run away from home in order to search for the pearl (it turns out this is actually the second time AoAo ran away from his home in Heaven, even if he himself isn't aware of it, because someone erased his memories of the first time he ran away, altogether).

To further complicate matters, it is only much later on that the eastern blue dragon (AoAo) and the western dragon (Ryan) learn the fact that they are *ALSO* a pair of reincarnated ill-fated "lovers", who had already met each other in a previous lifetime. Though, ONLY the western dragon (Ryan) is a reincarnation, while the eastern blue dragon (AoAo) is just the resurrected form of his past self (Ao Yue, also known as Xuan Yue) who was resurrected as a baby through a magic ritual, with a new name (the name of "AoAo") and without his past memories. The thing is, the two had met before in that previous life, when both were different people with different names: the blue dragon AoAo used to be Ao Yue (also known as Xuan Yue), who had grown up without knowing he was actually the long lost second dragon prince, the missing younger son of the dragon king, and the long-lost only little brother of the first dragon prince, Ao Gu (who had recently also even managed to secretly locate his long lost brother, already)... whereas the western dragon, Ryan, used to be back then a human demon slayer guy named Xiao Jifeng, who by chance met the long lost second dragon prince, Ao Yue/Xuan Yue, in the human world. Xiao Jifeng became crazy and obsessively inlove with Ao Yue/Xuan Yue, and thus imprisoned him and stole his dragon pearl in order to keep him all to himself, even against Ao Yue/Xuan Yue's will. What they didn't know was that Xiao Jifeng was being influenced/controlled by a demonic entity, the same demonic entity that had been sealed inside Ao Yue/Xuan Yue (by Ao Yue's and Ao Gu's father, the dragon king), when Ao Yue was still a baby, and which had somehow managed to possess Xiao Jifeng, even from still inside Ao Yue/Xuan Yue... Ao Yue/Xuan Yue died, but he was magically resurrected as a baby with a new name ("AoAo") without any of his past memories, while his older brother, the first dragon prince (Ao Gu) found the baby AoAo and adopted him in order to raise him as his little brother once again... Meanwhile, in another part of the world (Europe), Xiao Jifeng was reincarnated as a Western dragon... and that's how our story began.

link to all updates:

the last chapter here in the novel is:
Volume 2, Chapter 5 Part 5
so go to: V2C5 Part 6

direct link:
https://secretdreamerdotblog.wordpress.com/2020/05/31/chapter-5-part-6-2/
(scroll down, there should be a previous and next chapter button. don't press the suggested chapters under "related" that has a preview, it's not the right one. keep scrolling after "related")

main link:
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/the-sword-and-the-dress/
(you have to scroll around the bottom to see the chapters list. and then click a chapter on the right side. if it doesnt load the blog, look for the "url: link" in a table chart somewhere and press link)

The story is not just a typical non-con romance, but their fate has been established since the ancient time already. Through some misfortunate era they missed out each other, now in the modern time, the Hyung has to hold on tight to hosik so he will be not snatched away again.

This is their next reincarnation after they didnt get back together (and i believe they wont get back together in this lifetime, too. So that's why present sungyeon is very protective and obsessive towards hosik but luckily present sungyeon doesnt have his past lives'memories :(

GUYSSS LISTEN TO "LIFETIME" BY BEN&BEN. IT FREAKING SUITS THEIR STORYYYYY SOB SOB WEEP WEEP

So the story follows 2 main characters, Jun Shen the brunette rock-star in training and Zhixing Yu, a blonde oil painter living a slummy life and who secretly obsesses over Jun Shen, his neighbor. As it so happens, Zhixing and Jun, despite being in the same high-school have never spoken a word to each other to this day. As Zhixing gets closer to realizing how futile his love/crush is, he feeds a magic cat(god) and is granted a wish in return. I WANT JUN TO LOVE ME!~ His initial request is denied, as LOVE is too powerful to force--even for a kitty-god. Instead, our MC Zhixing is given a week to make Jun fall for him and to help, the kitty-god turns Jun into a cat!

Our story unfolds with the days as the week goes by and Jun/Zhixing slowly get closer. The two can't talk since Jun's a cat but he does understand Zhixing and while they begin to get closer to one another, Jun pulls away when he realizes Zhixing's feelings for him. Unfortunately, this one gesture leads to the spiral of drama we see--as we learn about Zhixing's and Jun's individual pasts and the cat-god interferes.

*SPOILERS*

Zhixing grew up a child of divorced parents and since his father went on to become a glorified artist, his mother always hated how similar Zhixing was. This is revealed to have tormented the kid until he saw Jun and his band for the 1st time (just a bunch of kids playing music on the street, not professionally). Zhixing is personally afflicted with how much energy Jun is putting into a "hopeless" path and sends him a fan-letter under the name "William" that basically says "Git good cuz right now you suck. I like your voice though and hope you succeed. Show me you can." and this spurs Jun into becoming the rock-star he is today. Unfortunately, as Jun got older, he refused to acknowledge his feelings for this "William" and plays a part in one of his friend's leaving school after he's outed as gay (the friend, not Jun).

This brings us back to the main story where Jun has just flinched away from Zhixing's touch--having figured out the way Zhixing feels. As the days follow, the two don't interact and it is revealed that if he fails to make Jun love him, Zhixing agrees to have the cat-god take away his feelings for Jun entirely. When Jun learns this, he begins to freak out and we spend the remaining chapters in a dream-realm that cat-god send' Jun to. In this realm, Jun is returned to his days in high-school, where he undoes his mistakes from before. He helps his gay friend stay strong and meets his lover, he works to understand his feelings, and all the while--the GF Jun had originally at the time is now swapped for Zhixing. He sees Zhixing as male but everyone else see him as the GF of the real past. One thing leads to another and Jun hurts Zhixing again in this dream world--failing to fix things before it ends.

Now Jun is freaking out, knowing that the day after tomorrow Zhixing will forget his love for him but thankfully a Deus Ex Machina appears in the form of Jun's old friend and current band-mate. This guy apparently figured out that Jun is a cat, texts him back and forth, and basically shows Zhixing that Jun loves him all in one sitting. Honestly, this part of the plot is weak-sauce but the ending is just so sweet.

The ending is happy. It ends with the two of the MC's together in love, openly sharing how they feel. 7/10 in that the story plot was a mess but if you sort through it, it's actually a very sweet story with minimal drama~ (づ￣ ³￣)づ

I've reread the end so many times, still don't really know what happened.. Was it all dream and they are actually together already or the 'cat curse' broke and they are like together out of nowhere.. waa! I don't knoww..
(╯_╰)

Is this good? Like iam not a fan of cross dressing and overly femenine uke bl

Shimizu Yuki has the best Yaoi stories I have ever read. Love Mode was my first of her Yaoi stories and I am always stunned with tears at the end everytime I read it. Unlike other Yaoi, Shimizu really serves us something poignant and endearing while its both highly explicit and sensual. There are not many authors who can weave in so many storylines and couples so well! Usually there are favourites and ones that you'd want to skip but every couple in this couple, you will want to read. I think my favourite thing about Shimizu stories and Love Mode is the dialogue and the Art. There is a very intriciate and touching focus on words and small features such as fingers, eyes and such that make it most evocative. It's such a well thought-out story that you can always come back to read.

The word polar is so fitting to this story. So far, It seems everyone around haru is questioning what makes him so special. His teacher thinks he’s unfocused, the inner voice repeatedly asked what is It about him that he should keep reviving over and over again, the side characters all wonder what tf makes him such a gravitating person. And to be honest, the outside version of him IS kind of lacking. It’s like...all he wants is to be a member of ISO, and everything else is just...happening around/to him? I can’t put It into words, but it’s like he’s a bit off. This inner voice is probably his real self or rather, all of his actual emotions/behaviors and things that he stopped feeling the effort to do because of the experiments. I actually hope the two do merge and he starts acting in earnest like Nakyoung (albeit sis was wild for using them in her suicide plan)

His last words were meant for the bastard. I will never forgive him, no matter how he regrets everything.

Wow this author knows how to make people laugh and cry hard! The only thing I didn't like too much was the relationship with the coworker. It was a bit forced. If he wasn't ready to move on, he shouldn't have forced himself. Who said you have to be married to be happy? Everybody got hurt because he tried to accept her when he wasn't ready. And Koharu never called Masamune dad

Was that the end? If not how many chapters are left?

So I read from the spoilers that the MC still had that bastard ex in his heart when he breath last? Like seriously...I m kinda sensitive person & reading all the spoilers I m hesitating to read this becaise of the angst & suffering Doctor & uke went through...my friend strongly recommended me this & I am finally here but should I read it...I guess I shouldnt coz I'll be suffering...just can anyone lemme know who actually is the main seme...? Is the Doctor just the 2nd guy coz if he is I m not gonna read it...coz that damn Jiang bastard is already getting on my nerves

there's no happiness here... like at all.
nobody was truly happy by the end.

don't get me started on jiang wenxu, the fucking bastard. fuck his letter and all his suffering afterwards, he deserves all of it and more.

doctor ai... he did all he can. he fell in love in the most unfortunate way. and even if his love was accepted, it never truly was reciprocated in the end. he tried his best, he did what he could. but there was really no way for his love to bear fruit and win against the feelings that have bloomed for over ten years. even if those feelings were one-sided.

and zhishu... poor zhishu. he deserved so much more than the fucking asshole jiang wenxu. he wasn't treated right, and even when he was suffering, even when he left, even when he was treated with the love his supposed long-time lover should have given him, and even until the end, he never stopped loving wenxu. he feels indebted to the doctor and I'm sure accepting his feelings was the only thing he felt like he could do for him, as he could never truly give his heart to doctor ai. that was simply what accepting the ring and letting their bodies connect meant. he must have wanted to do so much more for dr ai, who was there for his side when the loved one he needed the most wasn't. but he already dedicated so much of this life to jiang that he could only make promises to dr ai for the next life.

the side ho shen too, altho he was a bitch, he just loved the wrong man in the wrong life. it was sad that he died just like that. and jiang wenxu who started it all didn't even seem to care. it makes me sick.

i think i sound heated but I'm actually just really depressed over all of this. i didn't even have the energy to cry...

but yeah!
guess that's it
thanks to this manhwa for shattering my empty soul

Someone please explain. Why did Ao Gu called him Ao Yue? I thought it was Xuan Yue? And they were brothers in their past lives too?

The quote saying that the light gets in trough our wounds, is really similar to a one of my favourite quotes from Ernest Hemingway: "We're all broken and that's how the light gets in." Saying that we become better people trough our sufferings and breakdowns is one of the most real and profound things I ever read of while reading yaoi.