They’re really making blue hair (purple hair?) the sexiest person in this manhua aren’t they? Especially over these last 10-15 chapters. I see you author. I see you.
I feel like in the first few chapters, the ML already liked the MC - even if he raped him he didn’t need to tear his anus like that. And it’s not lack of experience or ignorance. He knew the MC was in pain and he knew that his anus needed ointment etc.
I remember he said to his 2nd in command something along the lines of the first time needs to be rough/ painful in order to teach them discipline or something to that effect.
So he act all cute now, but I’ll never forget his initial attitude.
I really don’t like the doctor. I was really put off by their first sexual encounter.
I firmly believe though that if Dojun and his brother were not actually brothers (whether blood related or not) his brother would have been a better match. He seems like he would have treated Dojun so much better and valued him so much more than the Doctor ever could. Those depictions of the alternate reality where they were lovers were really beautiful.
But they are brothers.
And - his brother used to be so caring for him in the past, but when that love became something other than brotherly affection it all went to shit. The brother is a huge part of the reason that Dojun became so insecure and desperate for affection (not the sole reason as his classmates didn’t exactly make things easier for him).
It’s cliche but Dojun really needs to love himself before he can be in a relationship. He’s so starved for affection and so desperate for approval that I’m afraid he’ll carry on blaming himself, second guessing himself, and excusing his partner’s bad behaviour.
Despite the author’s attempts to show us the Doctor cares about him it just didn’t feel authentic. There will never be an appropriate balance of power in the relationship.
I needed the doctor to suffer so much more for me to like him. I also hate that both of the bottoms were virgins and the tops weren’t lol. Hate that dynamic. I do feel conflicted over Dowha… like obvs brothers are a no.. but I loved how sincere he seems to have always been. I wish their familial tie wasn’t real or he was just a completely other character and Dojuns end game. </3
Agreed.
And honestly I find the whole bottoms being virgins and tops being (acceptably slutty) quite misogynistic. For many BL authors, the ukes are placeholders for women (this has been going on for decades and started with manga). So the relationship is not dissimilar to a straight relationship in manga, albeit with much more painful sex for some reason. And the ukes are written as physically weaker, pretty and shorter than the top.
Anyways, in real life, for centuries women had to be virgins, while men sleeping around was not frowned upon and often encouraged. I feel like this outdated attitude affects many authors perception of ukes and relationship dynamics. And I feel that this attitude is subconscious rather than intentionally derogatory.
THIS. Like why is it so popularized?? It just never feels handled correctly and ruins a big part of their relationships for me. I hope mangas and manwhas are changing and losing some of those “classic” tropes and dynamics. I don’t mind feminine bottoms but it’s always so obvious when it’s not about that and it’s just a stand in for a woman.
Totally agree with you.
The seme is just adorable. And the uke is so sassy. I love these two together.
Others have said it below but in the first chapter when we saw him waking up, perhaps he really did wake up for the first time.
In other words, the next step in human evolution, evolved from all the zombie chaos.That being said, I wonder how he was socialised or decided to be on the side of the humans? Was that something innate or a remnant of his past life?
And is the elephant boy a zombie now? Is his father afraid that he will be killed immediately? If he is not killed is there some sort of time period in which he might evolve to a human zombie hybrid like the ML?
Also… some people have replied to my comments with actual spoilers since they are ahead maybe with raws etc.
Please don’t. I’m just musing here - I don’t ever read ahead.
For me, if you caused the death of my sibling, I could never forgive you no matter how good the D. I hope he doesn’t end up with him in the end, even if it’s just for this one reason alone. But.., we know these things always end up. …
”I had a traumatic childhood that’s why I’m this way” and
“I trusted my underling to move your brother to a safe spot. When I found out he didn’t I shot him” or
“I only did those things to make you hate me. But when you came back to me and tried to stab me I knew I could never let you go”
He will end up with him. Toxic BL isn't about finding who will end up together. We know from the beginning. It's about how.
That is one of the hottest yet scariest bottoms I’ve ever seen.
So nothing really happened - it was all just a movie?
Or was this an alternate universe or something.
I kinda like the end of the original story because of the need for self love, but I definitely ended up becoming a Chisoo fan.
The writing is very intelligent especially explaining the technicalities of the omegaverse, complexity of emotions and relating things to Greek mythology. I do think the uke hadn’t dealt with his rape trauma yet. He probably closed himself off to these type of emotions after the bird incident with his brother. As the seme said - those cynical of deep emotions are probably the most idealistic of all - somewhere deep inside.
Speaking of the brother - wasn’t he on the phone with him during the accident. And when the call cut, the brother just acted as if nothing was wrong. What a mess.
He was talking to the secretary
Lick it bitch!