
I’d put off reading this for a long time. I finally read it and it was just beautiful. The first half was difficult to read because it was so cruel. Well written but it’s hard to see someone go through such experiences for years on end.
But the second half was amazing not just because of the emotions and regret, but because it actually ACKNOWLEDGED trauma and how hard it can be. And true acknowledgment of the cause of the trauma, and regret on the part of the person causing the trauma. So many 18+ manhwa never seem to get this right, and feel hollow and superficial.
I’m actually so glad that it didn’t have smut e,g, in bonus chapters when they were older because it would have detracted from the sheer beauty of the story.
This story made me cry but in a good way. Really well written especially regarding the characters inner most thoughts.

Also. Tatsumi and Senzaki for the win. And the prose describing their relationship, going against society, and obsession with each other was top tier.
The only character I loved was Atsumu. Being bullied his entire life never changed his kindness. He was just lovely. And the guy wanting to take revenge for his brother was also nice. The MC’s strength of character was never broken and you’ve got to respect that.
I think the MC definitely went through a redemption arc, eventually defending those less powerful than him. But why was he the only one? He never raped anyone although he was awful at the beginning. Why was there no redemption for any of the rapists, Karino included?
Because love saves us all. And forgiveness and growing up blah blah.
Fuck that. Bitch I want REVENGE.

Remember when Karino pushed him down a flight of stairs, blindfolded him and raped him? And now they are happy together. Lovely.
As for Eno, he had rape trauma. Can you imagine how many people he caused to get raped though? Not just raped but gang raped. So what? The cycle of abuse continues? Fuck that. Have some empathy you bitch.

These two are ADORABLE. And you know what, this is how gay men behave in real life. Two mature men getting into a relationship.
Not some delicate flower childlike uke and obsessed rapist seme.
Ugh. I just love them and I love how much they love each other.
Also. The uke is taller than the seme. I can’t. That’s just too fucking hot.

Ok, so out of everyone here Sungjae is the cutest. He’s so stupid in an adorable way, but still quite attractive. And he always means well and wears his heart on his sleeve. I bet he’d be a crybaby top.
Sigh. Totally my type. I know side characters like him don’t generally get their own stories but I really wish he would. He’d be the ultimate puppy falling in love with a tsundere.
I could never be like the father. True, I am a whore… but I know my place.