
Bro the novel is insane. It's currently updating where I read it but damn this shit is wild

There's so much..... Here's like a summary that might not make sense. basically Nain is more human than expected Amon is very adamant that bro steels himself for the death of insignificant lives of humans and uses any methods to try to get Nain to come to terms with death and killing, (apparently this is Amon's way of caring for his mate since he's basically immortal) also anytime Nain is depressed or shows signs of resistance Amon + his side bitch priest basically drug Nain to erase his memory and cloud his pain. Nain completely unaware of this goes on with life except a magical creature helps him after Nain tried to plead with Amon about changing the amount of times they have a sacrifice killed. This creature which is pink helps him fight the incense drugs and he realizes that basically the priests have been drugging him on Amons comand but to make shit worse his own attendants blatantly lied to him as well knowing he was being drugged after this Nain basically is just broken cuz he's got no one to rely on except.... Maybe the pink haired guy. You see he's been a real pain in the ass but he has expressed humanity while everyone in that place hasn't, Nain and him get close and the Pink(Gwen) guy shows Nain he's a mage and also reveals he was the one who helped him during his drugging before. Anyways stuff happens and Nain realized that the side bitch priest probably cut a deal with Amon to drug him, probably gaining some sort of favor with Amon to keep him in place recent chapters end with Nain running to Gwen in despair telling him to use anything to stop him from thinking anymore cuz he's so mentally unstable and emotionally broken. (Not to mention it's mentioned that Nain might have a drug addiction as well to the incense drugs they used on him since it was so frequent). Also Gwen the pink guy has caught feelings for Nain -_- and tries to get "closer" but nain draws the line after a kiss... Main reason is that Gwen came to this country to study the religious beliefs of the people there but especially the center of everything which is Amon and Nain, nain in particular since they're not the same kind as Amon (Amons existence hasn't been revealed yet but is implied to be a dragon)
Big load of H U H