he’s not even really in love with dan. he has no idea who dan is. dan doesn’t even really know who he is. the flashbacks just show dan reserved, confused, scared. he hasn’t had a moment to breathe. a moment to show his personality. jaekyung has no idea who this man is. how can you love a shell? i guess you could love their presence. what they do for you. but you don’t love them.
i think the author wrote themselves into a corner. i don’t think the author knows how to give jaekyung a proper redemption arc. this “redemption” arc has been incredibly quick (while, somehow, also being quite slow). it doesn’t feel natural.
i was frustrated with dan this chapter. he still only blames himself. despite his ptsd, he doesn’t seem to hold any grudge toward jaekyung. it’s frustrating to read, but i had to remind myself that this isn’t an unfathomable situation. abuse victim DO blame themselves. poor dan.
last, i wondered why it’s easier for me to forgive mls in other stories. i think there are some really well written redemption arcs, some outlandish stories that make it easier to suspend belief, and, lastly, CHEMISTRY. there really isn’t any chemistry between these two. i keep reading, i have kept since the story began… honestly all i can hope for at this point is a happy ending for dan. as long as he gets that……
i totally understand that there were multiple factors that would push him (jaekyung) to realize his feelings for dan (reuniting with coach, believing dan to have died/been injured, and the fever) BUT. he absolutely does not seem the type to just.. accept? the way he’s feeling? there was no struggle? and i don’t remember any moments previous to this where his heart was noticeably stirred (aside from the hug). outwardly there was no sign he was struggling with his feelings. he’s just been pure evil.
additionally, being caught up in winning doesn’t equate to treating another human like scum under your shoe. he’s so…. idk. at least, in theory, we won’t have to bare witness to his blatant verbal/physical/sexual abuse towards dan!
no child deserves to go through this. i feel awful for baby jaekyung, i wish someone would have taken him away to somewhere safe (fuck his mom tbh). with that said, my empathy does not extend to adult jaekyung. dan had a miserable childhood & continued (continues) to have a hard time into adulthood & he still treats people with kindness. after a certain point, you have to decide to be kind even when the world hasn't been kind to you. it’s hard, but you have to TRY to become a better person, better than the people who hurt you. jaekyung hasn't chosen to be kind. he hasn’t tried to be better. i don't have sympathy for the adult he became.
YIPPEEE I AM FREE TO HATE READ ONCE AGAIN MY PURPOSE HAS BEEN RESTORED FUCK YOU JAEKYUNG!!!!!!!
he looked hot as fuck in the button up- i am willing to admit this!!!!! but booooo otherwise!!!!!!!!!
the art has always been kinda inconsistent, but omg! it was so noticeable this chapter
still love this manhwa, nawt looking forward to how the situation w pedo nurse works out :,(
is this the same artist from “the stranger in the mirror”? there’s something so distinct about it, that i feel they have to be the same. love it
oh wow they all fucking suck. especially brown hair ml. assuming exclusivity, being overly possessive and physically & sexually assaulting your assumed “partner,” yuck. the little dude is the only one that seems okay.
i love this manhwa. i’ve been following from the beginning, and it’s definitely become my fav. i was refreshing constantly waiting for the new season!! my other fav manhwa turned rapey so i’m SO happy this one is so cute, they’re both so communicative, their feelings are RECIPROCATED !! this manhwa & unsleep & one room TA are the only things keeping me going ^^ (author of pawns revenge, totally different vibe from these manhwas, i will never forgive u^^)
i loveeee characters like this (morally grey characters, or those with a dark, obsessive side- yandere- and characters who come across cold but are either a. extremely awkward or b. extremely sweet to those they love, but cold around others- tsundere) omg and the art is so pretty w such handsome characters… this was made for me (no i am NOT delusional at ALL)
woooow who woulda thought the great joo jaekyung would be sucking dick like this?
with that said, jaekyung you sorry bitch, he gave consent for sex but he’s setting clear boundaries and you can’t even listen to THOSE. there has been NO self reflection. below bare minimum would have been to respect the fact that dan doesn’t want to kiss, that he doesn’t want to see you, and you couldn’t even respect that!!! working up from the fucking negatives.