PPsama's Things

Traumatized might not exactly be the right word but hear me out.

I got very very drunk at a party and got a hangover the next day. It was a weird hangover bc I didn't have a headache but I always feel like puking and felt tired. It went away the next day so no biggy. Then a few days/week later whenever I think about drinking I feel like I kinda wanna puke?? Its not as bad as it sounds, like, I don't gag or anything but I feel something in my stomach. Also, sprite taste weird. It taste like there's a tiny bit of alchohol in it and now I hate sprite. Someone pls tell me whats wrong with me

i swear to god its been 3 years and i still cant do it right. ive been told what i am and google images confirmed it. but when i do the measurements i got DDD?! what is the meaning of this. im 100% sure i did the measurements correctly but what the hell did i do wrong. (i used inches, followed tutorials, googled stuff and everything the world had to offer but this damn monke cant get it right)
although i already know my breast size i just want to get the actual measurements.

i doubt anyone would read this but just in case they do, ill clarify wtf dis is. im basically writing a monologue about my thoughts that ill regret in the future.

the future is hella scary. i dont know what to do. the thought of being unemployed and living in the streets scares me. being a person without any passion is stupidly annoying. "if only i live in a better area where there are more things to do and try out... then maybe i might be able to pursue it as a carrier", is the pathetic excuse i made for myself who is afraid to try anything. and even when i thought about trying anything, money is the problem. although im not poor but im not well-off either. i cant leech of my parents forever nor my friends when i grow up. but wtf do i do. i dont want to be anything. all my friends seem to have such bright futures and here i am in a dump pile. right now i plan on being a vet but i know im not smart enough to be one. itll probably fail and even if i manage to become one, ill be the one who fucks everything up and get fired constantly. i dont even love animals but neither do i hate them. arghhhhhh its so confusing. i dont want to be alone.

fuck. never thought id be so desperate to the point of posting this. u got the deal. my discord username : PPsama#3417
i like yaoi, yuri, isekai and anime. hardcore.
i got horrible social skill btw so texting me first would be a good idea :)

Moms personality = im right you're wrong. Im the boss of this house so u gotta listen to me. If ure on my side, great. If ure not on my side, fuck u, ure my enemy but ill try and act nice to u with a knife behind my back. If ur mad at me and dont want to talk to me it wont bother me cuz at the end ull come back to me and in always right.
It may sound bias but thats how i c her.

Problem = me and her always get along well. Then one day i got grounded for the first time i came home 15 min late than the time that she told me to come home by. Its been a week, she doesnt talk to me if its not necessary, no eye contact, doesnt prepare food for me so now i hafta cook by myself and worst of all she throws tantrums at me multiple times at me (she never done that before)

Me = rn i dont wanna b the one who says srry cuz i think that shes taking it too far (the throwing tantrums at me) but im kinda chill but at the same time scared cuz she will hit me. So im trying to find a way to deal with her without getting killed lol.
Do i ignore her when she shout at me? Avoid her? Meditate? Say srry (oh pls dont make me do that, id rather die)