belabird's Things

So...yesterday my mom caught me reading an mpreg fanfiction and by 'caught' I mean took my computer without me knowing and logged into it and saw the page.

I knew she saw it and left it up because despite me repeatedly being told I don't have a computer that's not compatible with her school program she didn't listen. Low and behold she read it (i'm not sure how much). Probably attempted do go through my browsing history and has been looking at me weird since.

Part of the thing is my family is not accepting of LGBTQ community. They really don't understand it. I'm bi (maybe pan cause I can love anyone). I have a preference for men but that doesn't mean I don't like girls. In fact, when I finally do like one the feelings are definitely there and I feel more bubbly. The reality is though if I made the choice to be with anyone non-male I'd be disowned.

So now with this whole thing I feel anxious and shitty. I'm a grown adult. I don't know why my privacy had to be breached that way. I know she probably won't bring it up but it feels bad knowing she knows. It's not even like it was super incriminating. It did have mpreg but yeah...when someone's not accepting that's enough. I feel so crappy. And I don't even know why. I don't feel like I should feel guilty but I do.

This just feels like it sucks, and I guess I wonder does anyone in your life know? Or have you ever been caught? What did you do? How did you feel?