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I barely read it properly, it just hurts. I have adhd and grew up undiagnosed... It hurts, it hurt so much when I was a teen and also felt helpless, I hurt myself and I also felt like everything was meaningless and so so so bleak... I remember days were I'd just be catatonic or numb, others when I'd cry my eyes out for no apparent reason... This reminds me of it all... I hate the adults who are so irresponsible and cold, they are disgusting. I understand them, but I feel they are loathsome as well, so powerless facing the woes of a child... They drink and blind themselves as they can't do shirt about it, they undecisively try to meddle in it, pushing and pushing the people around them for selfish reasons when they don't trully understand how or want to actually help. I hate this. It is too real. It is still too fresh of a wound... It festers and I feel like a dilascerated infected ail has been brought back...