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I literally feel insane reading this, so to top it up with my depression, sleep deprivation, irregular current life and just weirdness: this is just like I know 90% of what I just read is mental and deraged and honestly a new type of sickness, but it also makes the atmosphere so drunk and off/ uncanny, enwrapping in a weird catatonic/apatic, so numbing that I am just glazing through this horrific horror story like a dream where I am paralyzed. This is literally a fever dream, I feel queasy and dizzy but also unaffected almost. I think my mental state really is down a peg for how I should be...