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are you sure?? hmmm i think there's a greater chance that subin would fall harder for hyung than he did with hyunwoo, after all it was hyung who loved him even if he was broken. Hyunwoo maybe subin's first love; his first pain; his first heartbreak and i agree that he may never forget him. But will they end together? No, cause subin already learned his lesson. And he may be 'undeserving' of hyung's love but he is what hyung chose so ╮(￣▽￣)╭

I respectfully disagree — what Subin felt towards Hyunwoon was never love at all but an all-consuming obsession. I feel like that is sort of the point of this story, showing how people "love" illusions and how excruciating it can be to face the reality of a person. (I.e. the man you love being capable of denying to your face that the two of you had sex because he doesn’t want to deal with the emotional fallout or responsibility of his own actions. Jesus).

Subin’s obsession with Hyunwoon has all the marks of adolescent idealization of romantic tragedy and devotion. It’s not a mature connection. It is and was doomed for failure, especially given Hyunwoon’s treatment of Subin and Subin’s codependency.

Subin has a much better chance of happiness and *real* love with someone else now that he’s been forced to confront his illusions about love. I’m not saying it has to be Hyung.

In fact, I think all the men in this story need a good two years worth of therapy at minimum before they consider a committed relationship with anyone to work out their self-esteem issues, body image issues, emotional drinking habits, co-dependent behaviors, denial, self-sabotage compulsions, manipulative tendencies, and emotional detachment, etc., etc. My ideal ending is all of them alone, getting help, and learning to love themselves. But I digress.

Real love isn’t meant to destroy your sense of self. It is not an obsession that prevents you from moving forward or loving yourself. It isn’t an emotional shackle. I know that may seem "romantic" but ... it’s just not. It’s unhealthy and sick. Loving someone should never feel the way Subin’s "love" for Hyunwoon made him feel. That’s what toxic connections feel like.

Opps, Hyunwoo* just caught that was autocorrected the whole way through.

ok i agree with you for the most part (even the part where you said that Subin didn't necessarily had to end up with hyung), I just like to point out that in korean culture, people do tend to drink alcoholic beverages a lot. Koreans love to drink lol so i don't think that's something they have to go in therapy with lol Aaaaaand, I love what you said, I really do, but I like to think that at least hyung and subin can now solve their problems together? I mean, its gonna be rough and of course they still have lots of issues to deal with, but at least they got each other to count on. ╮(￣▽￣)╭

Shhhh. Dont be so pessimistic. Give my boy the time to really move on and give hyung the time to shower subin with lots of love.

Haha You're right but this is BL so you gotta at least let them get the therapy together. I went through way too many emotions to let Subin and Kangjun break up now.

He said to Hyung that he will try to love him, TRY he doesn’t love him yet
And in the last chapter he is hoping that hyunwoo will stop him, when you used to love someone this much it will not be that easy to just forget him
He is not over yet, and will probably never be.
Just imagine dating someone and konwing that he will never love you more that his ex-lover. That’s sad for Hyung, he will always have some fear, never trust subin
Subin should just date nobody and think about his study and then love

That is true. Subin will always have a part of him that loves hyunwoo. And I think thats okay. Because despite that, he chooses to be with hyung. He chooses to try and make it work.

And of course he will never love hyung like he loved Hyunwoo. Love is different in every relationship. There's really no point in thinking about who he loved more because its different. There is no way to compare. Whether or not hyung will fear that is something for them to work on.

Though I'm completely okay with Subin ending up with nobody as well.

He will always love Jaeha.

They’d probably have a dynamic really similar to the flowershop manga also by Kotetsuko (Mankai Darling)

SHIT I HIT THUMBS DOWN NOOOOOOOOOO

Why a secret wedding though? I WANT A DIVORCE THEN A BIG MARRIAGE. Make his mother suffer more.