I hate this sooo much. I associate so much with the uke. Like I know it might not be possible but I just want the seme and uke to be together happy. I have never connected with a characters trauma so much I feel like i need assurance that you can end up ok after everything idk whatever
Seems like the author might need to hit you with a little bit of reality, i feel sorry for you though. I hope you're okay man.
Hugging someone and being able to let your gaurd down sounds so nice.