this chapter clearly occurs after the christmas specials before he tian has fully returned and when mo is in his old apartment. so it is to be assumed he tian sees mo when he can. i can see mo not being as indifferent to his presence the first time he tian returned after those 4/5 years - he was most likely indescribably angry and hurt. mo probably hates he tian for walking back into his life and leaving again even if it is not permanently. so he refuses to trust him again knowing he tian wont stay. but his true feelings are revealed when he is drunk he becomes affectionate - because deep down he wants to be. he is unable to cope with the love he feels for he tian so he attempts to push it out of his mind or hide physical reminders taped up in that box. when in his drunken state mo thinks he is dreaming he tian tells him he is because he won’t be there in the morning. UGH. does this also mean mo regularly dreams about he tian?? just end my misery!!
THERAPIST KNOWING ABOUT THEM IS SO FUNNY TO ME
Thank u. I will go to sleep thinking about this (in a good way). I absolutely love theories about things, and especially he tian and mo’s way of being intimate… it is very liminal but it’s there: brushing hands, keeping memories, searching for each other, allowing themselves to sleep together (which requires a lot of trust)
he tian has clearly left in chapter 445 and it is presumably the last chapter in the flashback. we are now out of the flashback and in the present timeline with them as adults. (which the christmas specials, other specials and majority of the official art exist in) when the story started it was in the present timeline before the flashback and it suggested they were college students but now years later its very likely old xian has decided for them to already have graduated as they are pursuing careers and are now likely 22+….so he tian has likely been gone for 5 years.
ENOUGHH :SOB:
In which chapter the present timeline started? And the flashbacks? Didn't the story started with them being highschoolers?
I wanna know to
the present timeline was established at the very beginning of the story when jian yi returned. but this is loose in the canon as the plot didn’t have the depth the story does now especially as with the recent chapters old xian has subtlety changed a lot since those first chapters. we have seen glimpses of the present timeline in the specials and official art. the flashback is throughout their second to last year of high school and and up until chapter 445 (excluding special episodes ) the story was in the past. but now we are in the present timeline from chapter 446 onwards.
Okok thank youuuuu（/TДT)/
‘i would of forgotten about you a long time ago’ no matter how many times mo attempts to convince himself he tian means nothing to him he cannot bring himself to forget him no matter how hard he tries.
he kept everything that he tian gave him back then everything in that box was a indirect promise to be together forever so when he tian left he would of felt betrayed and abandoned. the retaping of the box and tape over he tians face and confessional words…i can imagine a drunken mo in a state opening that box mourning his love only to feel shame and cover it up again.
he is cold towards he tian now to protect himself but we know he loves him devastatingly soul consumingly so. sober thoughts were revealed in the christmas chapter after all. it hurt he tian to leave mo back then mo was his muse and he was so in love with him but he probably thought mo didn’t feel the same way so leaving wouldn’t hurt him. in this chapter he is most likely realising that is not true.
now we pray for all the miscommunication and emotional avoidance towards their true feelings to be resolved this year (⌒▽⌒)
Please do my quote annotations for English (emoji keyboard foul when I typed English a cup of tea came up )
not to alarm anyone but in the future chapters we have seen nearly all side characters but not mos mother…he lives a new apartment…maybe she doesn’t exist anymore :(
Omg how have I not noticed this all these years, we haven't seen Jian Yi' mom top bit I'm assuming that she got reunited with the dad or something when Jian got kidnapped.
praying old xian stays safe with these censorship crackdowns and the recent arrests we already know tamen de gushi was severely censored :( admiring how brave he is publishing unapologetic queer content!!
tj my sweet angel cherub…my little meow meow…misunderstood baby ╥﹏╥
brother eugh
BTW this is not because ur a TJ fan it's just cause of the "meow meow baby" thing lol
put that grown man down
this is absolutely crazy….abhorrent freak4freak behaviour…shameless needy masochist top….shameless sadist bottom….GIVE ME 15 OF EM RIGHT NOW!!!!!
can we not upload the same chapter like dont piss me offfff
Calm down this is the official the first one was a bot or whatever shouldn’t of even been uploaded…
Right like
fr i was giggling abt the update (╬￣皿￣)凸