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Only here for a fun time and please do not take everything I say seriously and I don't mean to be mean to you I'm just naturally like this a bitch. No but seriously it's just my tone and my struggle for communication thing. I'm on the spectrum.
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Want to randomly cry? Here go read this.
I used to have a boyfriend, he was the best thing in the world and we had a quite messy relationship because we both got together when we werent in the best mental state, specially him. He was still struggling to let go his ex and trying to make sense on how a person he even flexed to his friends could eventually turn out so horrible. It was so hard for him but i've forgot that sometimes and got jealous and we would always argue about how he's still not over him despite my efforts. I was so angry I couldn't replace that man like im just the 2nd option forever.
At some point i accused him of cheating cus I saw him messaging his ex and i was worried at first but jealousy got to me. I was in such a bad mood when I confronted to him about the messages and out of anger I ended up accidentally hitting them. He became scared of me. He vented about it to his friends who were my friends too. I was devestated and hated myself alot so much so that i tried being till from alien stage cus oh shit his friends hate me too and I won't ever have chances again like this. I begged for his forgiveness then i heard that he had a fight with his friends cus of me and i felt sorry. I told him i'll break up he doesnt have to choose me but he said that "you can be forgiven" and I just couldn't say anything except but cry over it.
He gave me hopes and i tried so hard to gain the trust of his friends so much that i forgot to pay attention to him too. I didnt notice he was going through something deep like as deeply badly. It was affecting his mood and friendships badly to the point it got broken. I was disappointed towards him because "the person I loved wouldnt say those things to his friends even if he was so angry." i told him. It broke him, while I try to fix his mistakes as in apologise to them i didnt know he was so sad from the break up cus i was too upset to even talk to him.
i didnt realise it'd be the last moment I would have talked to him. I regret the things i've said to him like deeply so. He thought i hated him from his suicide note and I dont like that. I just... was sad he lost everyone when i knew how important everyone else was to him. Their impact and the way he saw light in life again cus of them only for when that link gets broken. He falls. Its awfully sad on how it seems im the only one to actually care cus I dont see it from them personally.
i dont know honestly... maybe they did care just not the same way i would do. Eihter way I hope they have abit of that heart and forgive him one day... specially now knowing his actions were forced and he was just scared. "Forgive me for whatever i may do to you guys" he qoutes in his diary. he knew somehow.
i really miss him so much so if they only just knew. I loved them alot like fucking seriously and i dont get how u could hate someone who just doesnt know how to be okay bev in their whole life they werent okay "until i was with you." LIKE DO YOU SEE THAT? UNTIL HE WAS WITH ME HE WAS HAPPY but oh boy... what if kill myself huh? i mean i did try multiple times so my friends suggested a "temporary" solution that ended up being still used for months. I dont wanna go to deep on it but you will find out what it is if you read more of this or if you do still care enough.
i just feel sad for him okay? its just idk maybe he shouldve been given more love or reassurance then maybe he'd still be here and im not some stupid mentally ill person pretending to be him. If you read all of this, it means you know "kyaah" is my alt account and i've been using it for months to comfort myself and no if you know about the drama about kyaah being that guy's victim, it still was real i didnt fake it. That guy was mocking me when i said he was a rapist and a shitty person. He knew how popular i had become on this site he decided to cause some trouble. Kyaah is that guy's victim who kts due to the abuse they had went through... march 12th. The abuser is playing along with me to mess with me and provoke me. hes a shitty person that i want to murder so badly but anyways enough about that guy i already put him into jail by the time you read this
Mh yah my bf unfortunately died long ago and its quite pathetic i pretended to be him for months... i just posted his vents to how people would respond to him if he asked for help and ppl gave advices and criticism on what he wanted to hear. What he NEEDED to hear. I felt tbh by posting these vents he'll rest finally and have no worries at last.
so thats about it and somewhat congrats for reading everything i guess? didnt expect you would read since i made this long on purpose so ppl ignore btw if u did read fully can u email me? maybe i need abit of some good words honestly... ill be waiting.
you know what? fine ill become the better bigger person in this and help them. I feel bad. They may have done something really incredibly shitty to me but ill do it for justice.
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and its ur fault as it always is like his death