When you spend years having people treat you like you're worthless, hit you and abuse you because you feel you don't deserve love. And then this quiet beast shows up and he wants to worship every inch of you, he's kind to you and you're afraid because it feels good, too good and it's new and it makes no sense and he's making love to you, finally.
I almost flipped the fuck out of my table (╯°Д °)╯╧╧ but it turned out to be a reverse troll. Well played, Old Xian.