
At first I was like why won't he communicate. But i can definitely relate. When you're so self conscious and doubtful of everyone and everything, it hurts so much you can't get a word out. You feel in the moment that whatever the person says will be a lie. You gotta step back and control your emotions because you feel like you'll explode and do or say the wrong thing. I hate being emotional like this. Where my mind just jumps ahead of it self. But the words hurt so much you panic in the moment.

Ok a bit unrelated but I'm a bit weirded out by the name Jayed as someone named Jade. It feels so strange to pronounce. Or is anyone pronouncing it differently?
Idk why this has disturbed me. I go by it's Spanish and English version but Jayed would be something different and unrelated to it's original in Spanish?? Idk I'm just ranting a bit.
Yeah no I need this seme guy to suffer for not wanting him. (︶︿︶)=凸