Bro out of everything I’m just pissed at the marriage association thing cause why are y’all forcing ppl to have regular sex, randomly changing quota timeframes, and then putting them under observation for “unusual activity”, bro even if they were a real couple, are they not allowed to spend time apart on a break? Y’all know they’re uni students that’s the whole point of the program, so how unusual is it to be going to your own homes when its uni break etc, AND THEN THE DAD DRUGGING THEM WITH CHOCOLATE TO MAKE A SEX SCENARIO AGAINST THEIR WILL?
and also why the heeeeell is mc not telling ml about meeting a guy that claimed to be his ex etc, “you don’t have to tell me, I trust you” my ass, you should be saying we’re technically husbands now so Im supposed to know the person I’m in this with a lot better and not be practically strangers and also considering it’s this whole thing that rumors are flying around about I’d rather hear it from you first and in your own words so sit the hell down and tell me what happened
Also “not interfering in each others love life” MY ASS BRO YOU SHOULD BE SAYIJG WE SHOULD BE ENTIRELY EXCLUSIVE CAUSE ACTING OTHERWISE AND TRYNA GET WITH OTHERS PUTS US AT RISK OF BEING EXPOSED AS FRAUDS AND LOSIGN SCHOLARSHIP AND EVERYTHING WE WORKED FRO, nOt IntErfErInG BRUH
I feel so bad for kiyoto, what they had going was so good and mc really did love him, but it’s sad to agree with kiyoto that mc would always still think of the “what if”-s and his mind won’t rest even if he loves kiyoto, it’s just a whole mess
But also as a reader I wanna both say it’s a well told story but also BRO I DIDNT GET THE SATISFACTION TO SEE THEM ACTUALLY LIVING A ROMANTIC LIFE TOGETHER THEY JUST BARELY AGREED TO START FROM ZERO I GOT BLUE BALLED BROOOOO
My god do I hate characters that invalidate the other person’s feelings like “you’re mistaken it’s not real” and even worse when they’re arrogant enough to decide for the other person what’s best for them and what will make them happy, nothing more I hate than taking the choic3 away from them,
bro are you serious? Making the same mistake twice then and now, after confessing and crossing that line and sleeping with him you’re just gonna easily let him go thinking your feelings weren’t real and you did it out of pity? Instead of holding him back and making him realize you love him and promising to stay by his side you just let him leave again? “For his sake”? Thinking he’d go have some happy life with some girl? Was the first time of seeing him be so broken he chased after a married woman he didn’t even love just to lick each others wounds not enough evidence that the future you imagine him to have isn’t gonna happen just cause you push him away? Like he’s so goddamn wishy washy about it all, promises everything to him and the next moment pushes away “for his sake”, then pulls him in again only to do the same again… if it was for his sake he’d stick t0 him and promise to make him happy the second time and not leave it for a damn third time
Idk man, I thought their youth conflict would’ve been something more interesting than “oh I was secretly slutty but wanted to keep my love for you innocent” “ oh I was lusting for you and felt guilty as if that’s violating you so I ran away” … like bro he’s an adult too, he full on confessed to you do you think he didn’t take it into consideration that an upcoming step would be sex with you if it’s mutual? Why are you running away from him for being sexually attracted to him as if you jerked off to Virgin Mary are you dumb
Also I really didn’t like all the sex scenes with some other random guys, but also on top of it I don’t like how shitty they had to be??? Wtf was the necessity of the money envelope guy that went insane and raped him like “oh you’re so innocent you have a crush and ending things with me? Oh I’m gonna use you for all your worth then whether you like it or not” bro the artist was just tryna include rape as a scene for fetishists or smth… and also I don’t get this trope of otherwise normal guys that happen to be slutty but going for the absolute garbage human beings for sex partners, like he’s just normal, no past trauma to explain settling for people that mistreat you so then why the hell would he settle for it?
Also don’t like the ending, thought after all his 7 year prolonged mess and yearning and idk what after solving they’d wanna be TOGETHER together, either one of them moving to the other’s location but no “I live my life here you live yours there and we’ll travel between Japan and England sometimes”???? Bruh it’s like if Romeo and Juliet said “okay babe I’ll email you sometime”
Okay this pissed me off to hell and back, cause the first 2/3 of the story? The most delicious intimate feeling non-stop conversation getting to know each other chill vibe I’ve ever read, like asking and answering question you usually wouldn’t say out loud etc felt so nice comfy and vulnerable, and the top is clearly smitten from the first second
And like the plot is predictable sure, they’re both scared of fully letting go and giving in while also both craving the other to be a sure part of their future,,, except the top went way too fucking far for me to forgive and root for them anymore
Like holy fucking shit, mc has SO much to lose if he takes this for granted and fully gives in without thinking of “what if”-s and yet he takes the risk and says I like you out loud, and all he ever asked for is to be treated kindly, but what does the top do?
This 30 year old grown man child? He has no problem showing his feelings in action literally obsessed and worshipping except when it’s time to say it out loud? Just saying the three words that will put mc’s mind at ease and keep him by his side like he wants the most? Ye he can’t fucking say it, as if calling things what they are out loud is what’s putting his feelings in a vulnerable position, as if not saying it out loud makes it not real? Are you a fucking toddler? And what’s more he deliberately hurts mc for no goddamn reason with his “no you just wouldn’t expect much from me” “ no you mean nothing to me” “nothing will make me hung up on you” bitch all you do is hurt him when it matters the most and you’re gonna blame HIM for not fully giving in and always being in fight or flight mode and thinking of backup plans in case he’s left on the street again? You’re accusing HIM of playing push and pull? HIM?/?Please tell the class why the fuck you expect him to not expect to be thrown out when you tell him he means absolutely nothing to you? And all he asked was to be kind to him and what do you do? Choke him, threaten him, rape him, threaten to break his legs just so he wouldn’t leave and shit?
And bro had the audacity to say shit like “don’t cry it breaks my heart’ after he saw mc’s high school rape video, bitch go to hell
Literally should’ve wrapped up the story while it was going nicely 2/3 in cause now it’s just ruined, also why the FUCK would the guy that from the first moment opened a vulnerable conversation with mc and pulled truths out of him AND told his own life story and was equally vulnerable etc suddenly be hung up on not being able to say his feelings out loud? Bro had no problem repeating it when he didn’t mean it yet but when he does suddenly he’s spitting poison that would hurt mc for no reason? The fuck
Bro you canNOT just cut it off wih “the end” without letting us have the satisfaction to actually SEE the happy ending, I WANNA FIGHTTTTT
also the blond guy’s backstory was so unnecessary like I don’t need his sob story he’s a psycho I have no sympathy for, boohoo he had it rough
Same wih hart tbh, how much of a selfish ass could he be, literally not a single moment of consideration of what he’s gonna make his friends and especially mc feel by his plan, not even talking about just the suicide attempt and how it’d affect them, but actually planning to leave mc feeling like he assisted him with killing himself? Like he didn’t have enough shit going on in his life he also needs a lifelong trauma of feeling like he helped the guy he loves kill himself? And he didn’t even reconsider the several times he had opportunity to, when the bestie asked what he’d do if jasper wasn’t useful to him anymroe, or when mc was all happy and thankful to him all he felt was detached pity and the tiniest bit of guilt no feelings of friendship or love
And the bestie also was SO quick to cut ties when that psycho bully was messing with mc, and even now when blond guy was doing the exact same, she COULD have noticed something off and push to get the truth out when mc asked to fake having had a fight in front of blond guy and she still ignored the signs and kept on looking at the blond guy as a guy he talks to with no suspicion whatsoever
Mc deserves so much better than all of these people like DAMN, ever since ml’s diary was revealed I sobbed so bad for mc like aaaaaaaa
And like… the childhood encounter… it just breaks my heart even more cause the only reason mc has been living this shit life is cause he saved ml’s life giving him all his luck, and yet this asshole is here tryna kill himself…
And the encounter is used as an “ohh they met as kids so now their romance starts” as artificial sincerity points except it feels cheap cause without the childhood scene. All throughout the story ml didn’t even feel a drop of empathy towards mc let alone friendship or love, at most he pitied him, called blond guy an asshole (not even as a “siding with mc” thing, just calling things as they are way), and jumped in to protect mc a few times which also doesn’t mean shit since he generally accidentally does it for anyone anyway and he’s probably hoping to get hurt in their place anyway…
It’s like finding out you and your coworker were kindergarten friends and suddenly it changes everything in your relationship as if you’ve known and loved each other your whole life or smth… feels cheap
The plot started really rushing when French guy got introduced, and especially the ending was too fast like bro he gets told mc knows everything and made his choice and he STILL decides to meddle and kill Ml and like mc jumping in to save is predictable, and the reincarnation curse is lifted in that moment so it was gonna be the real end except again predictably French boi uses his last powers to being mc back….
It’s like it’s BOTH predictable AND too fast, at least if it was one or the other, like an unpredictable plot that unraveled quickly, or if it’s predictable then give it time to have an emotional effect and simmer but no it’s both so it’s like it was just written down just to get to the end….
But one thing I liked in the middle of it all was that after Ml remembers the first lifetime, when mc asks its not turned into a moment of keeping secrets “in case he doesn’t forgive him and leaves” or smth he just straight up tells him EVERYTHING, that I really loved, that there’s no space left for French boy to say “he only loves you cause he doesn’t know the life you caused him”he knows everything and made his informed decision
It’s so dear to me that the brother never left him behind but also I’ve seen this so many times where rich family pays big money to orphans relative family to raise him except the kid doesn’t see a cent of it and gets abused on top of it, like bro you’re sending big money how hard is it to be in contact and CHECK if it’s actually being put to use for his wellbeing or not, or even better be in contact with HIM a even if the uncles family are guardian, the kid didn’t even KNWO he wasn’t abandoned by brother or that he’s SUPPOSED to be well taken care of cause they get all the moeny in the world for it
But also damn I cried so damn much at every single scene of mc pushing away for ml’s sake, this is so goooooood (but also bro stop fucking him after he passed outtt)
I thought it was because the grandfather is blocking him in contacting his brother… Like it was mentioned he doesn’t even have a phone, guess he just took action when the grandpa was hospitalized/died
I mean he was blocked from contacting at the start ye cause grandpa didn’t want him running away but at some point they must’ve come to some understanding to make a deal to take care of mc cause it’s mentioned the brother could send the money and the better he performed the more he could send etc, if he could send money now he had SOME choice in what to do so informing mc of what’s happening woudlnt be impossible
Correct me if I’m wrong but it was mentioned that whenever they meet he would just hand him a credit card? So I’m assuming that they meet every year, idk if it’s a plot hole or whatever. I’m hoping to see brother’s side, a spin off if possible because his story is interesting too
Bro I think ml's kid realized what's going on between mc's and lawyers kids and agreed with hyeol to fake being together so lawyers kid finally figures out he likes mc's kid too
But also omg I wanna grab mc by the shoulders and shake bim, bro properly confess to that ANGEL of an ml ( I've never seen such a green flag ml in my LIFE, like holy shit it doesn't get any more unconditional) and tell him EVERYTHING about what's going on too, about husbands brother about his meetings with lawyer and husbands younger bro and everything AND CAN HE STOP GOING OUT ON HIS OWN TO TJE SHOPS AND PARKS AND STUFF OR EVEN WORSE WITH THE KIDS WHEN HE KNOWS THERES DANGEROUS PPL AFTER HIM!!?!?!!?
But also lol just how irrelevant to the plot it is that it's omegaverse, it doesn't matter at any point loll
Okay now I feel so bad for ei Ho HERE I WAS GIGGLING KICKING MY FEET AT A POSSIBLE SIDE COUPLE CAUSE I THOUGHT THEIR PERSONALITY OCMBO WOULD BE HELLA FUN TO WATCH AND THEN YOU DROP A RELATIVE BOMB ON ME
I’m just gonna step off this bridge for a sec, goodbye