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im so glad i got the notification for this! also its cool that the author added all their sexual orientations. I knew jiwon was bisexual and it makes sense that he leans more towards men. I'm glad she added that bit since people seem to erase bisexual preferences. Anyway i cant wait for the 18th!!! :D

Seungho being soft and kissing Na Kyum's tears away is endearing and affectionate as hell it's almost hard to hate it (●￣(ｴ)￣●)

Seungho having sex with Na Kyum with his hair down and out of his top knot. LET ME SEE LONG HAIR SEUNGHO (づ￣ ³￣)づ

Why does his vampire form give me Kaname Kuran vibes???

The fact that Jiwon is an aries makes so much sense now lmao and this is coming from someone who's also an aries~

That part where she said "How do you kill it without actually killing it?"

She was definitely NOT talking about the rat and talking about Sangwoo himself. Since she can't seem to poison him, it looks like she decided to fuck with him mentally hence the sexual abuse. It also looks like Sangwoo was bleeding from his head when his mom had him tied down, so I'm thinking she might have knocked him out and raped him afterwards. His mom is crazy and the entire time we thought it was his dad smhhh

Hardly any character development and when it seemed like something might have changed, we end with an open ending?? Lame. Usually i dont mind open endings if theyre done well, but this one was just frustrating and made reading this an entire waste of time. And I'm usually into reading really fucked up shit but this one just became repetitive throughout. If you're wanting to read some yaoi with not much plot and just A LOT of sex, then this one might be for you. If you're not into rape or NTR, then I suggest you stray far away from this.

I'm assuming the part where Yule tells his sister that he let his friends rape Kyungsoo is when he admits he's a fucking head case and they actually check him into a mental hospital (what happened to that btw??) Also why hasnt anyone beat his friends asses for raping kyungsoo in the first place??? I cant be the only one that was waiting for that to happen but no, even when Yule was "in love with him" he still remained friends with the guys who raped the person he supposedly loved. Absolute mess i tell you.

Overall the art was nice, characters were alright, and the sex scenes were hard to get through since 95% of it is rape. You just felt bad for the main character the whole time tbh. I felt like there were a lot of loose ends that were never fully addressed. Like what the heck is wrong with that entire family??? lmao and also the background story to the brothers should have been more in depth imo.

I'll give it some kudos for straying away from usual BL plots so there's that.

Would I read it again? probably not :/

So it looks like this manga might come to a close soon (hopefully)

In chapter 66, we see Shiwoo thinking of Yujin and how much he wants to see him again. He's about to leave his apartment but he gets triggered by Hyun's past threats of leaving so he ends up having a mental breakdown in front of the door. When the door opens, he believes its Hyun and is terrified, but he's relieved to find Yujin right in front of him. Yujin asks him what he's doing in that kind of place. Upon hearing his voice, Shiwoo begins to tug at Yujin's shirt.

The first thing he says to Yujin is "I'm sorry" and then begs Yujin not to throw him away. This shocks Yujin as Shiwoo continues to repeat "I like you" over and over and asks Yujin not to leave and that he'll do anything. Then Shiwoo starts apologizing over and over again even as Yujin crouches down to hug him tightly.

They end up on the couch while Shiwoo sits in Yujin's lap still crying. I cant quite figure out what Yujin is saying to Shiwoo at the end of the chapter but I believe it is along the lines of not being able to just be a temporary interest and that he cant be someone Shiwoo only likes for awhile. and then he ends with something like "you like me, do you not want to be alone?" This suprises Yujin and ends the chapter.

Chapter 67 opens with the last scene of Yujin asking if Shiwoo doesn't want to be alone. Shiwoo who's still sitting on Yujin's lap starts sobbing more and says "I like you" over and over again. Yujin asks why Shiwoo had continuously lied to him (back in the hospital when Shiwoo broke up with him and pretty much all the times Shiwoo had pushed Yujin away). And then Yujin says something along the lines of "Those times you told me you wanted me to be happy with someone else, those were lies too?" (very rough translation sorry).

Shiwoo is about to apologize again but Yujin hugs him tightly saying "Why? why did you have to lie? How long have you been lying to me?" Shiwoo cries and tells him he's sorry and then Yujin says something like "Why did you try so hard to hide your feelings? How hard must it have been for you?". Shiwoo wipes his tears saying "Sorry, Yujin always thinks of me, but all I do is hurt you. I'm sorry for confessing. I'm so selfish. Yujin must be tired of me." Yujin is shocked and says "What are you talking about?? I was no good either. I was trying to hurt you hyung. For me, there was never a moment where I did not love you." Then yujin says something like "Just as you said, I tried to hate hyung because I knew that you were still in love with him (Hyun). I had no choice but to close my heart." (rough translation lol sorry these are a bit hard to understand how do people do this??? anyway..)

Shiwoo kisses him and apologizes while Yujin tells him he doesn't need to. Yujin starts crying and says "I thought hyung had thrown me away. I thought I was being hated because I felt like I was only hurting you. I couldnt do that to someone I love. Back when I said I was disgusted...I'm sorry. Please don't get hurt anymore, hyung hasn't changed."

Shiwoo kisses his head saying "Thank you for telling me what I've always wanted to hear the most." They both kiss again and Yujin tells Shiwoo "I love you, hyung"

The scene changes to Shiwoo laying his head on Yujins lap. He says "I was never comfortable with being loved. I was loved, I was happy, but I always felt uneasy. Someone like me can be thrown away any time." (rough trans sorry) Shinwoo continues, "Being thrown away made me anxious, so I ignored your feelings. If you weren't my lover from the beginning, it wouldn't hurt if I were to be abandoned." (im sobbing this is so sad i really feel bad for this kid wow) Shiwoo then says "You gave me happiness. Im so sorry."

Shiwoo covers his face as he cries and Yujin removes his hands saying "Don't say it like that. It's hard for me to hate you hyung. I've tried and I failed many times. You're the most precious person I've ever loved." Shiwoo is surprised and continues to hold onto Yujins waist and nuzzle his face into his shirt. Yujin thinks "I do not know hyung's past. But he cried without saying a single word"

Scene changes again to Yujin taking off his shirt. Yujin asks "Hyung, are you really okay with this?"The next panel is Shiwoo lying on the bed with his shirt halfway up and he says "If Yujin is okay, I want you to do it." Yujin hovers over him and asks what he should do since he hasnt done it in a few days. Shiwoo responds by pulling Yujin down for a kiss which turns heated quickly. Yujin sucks on Shiwoo's nipple and says i wanna do this before I put it inside.

Yujin continues to bite and suck on his nipple but notices that Shiwoo seems to be holding it in. He asks Shiwoo "Whats wrong? Please tell me.." Shiwoo then responds saying "Can I say something?/ Can I make a sound?" (not sure if he's asking to talk or if he's asking if he can make noises lol) Yujin replies saying "Yes of course" and im not sure what Shiwoo says here but the translation says “I feel dirty for feeling it. Do you hate it? ” ( ???? yeah idk, it was something like that lmao but basically he's referring to Yujin being disgusted by him before)

Yujin is shocked and thinks "It was then that I realized what I had done to hyung" In regards to how he had treated Shiwoo before he knew about his past.

Sorry for the really bad translations but I thought I'd post it for those who maybe didnt understand the gist of the recent chapters.(〜￣△￣)〜

So Shiwoo really likes sex (an addiction to it most likely) but he has a really fucked up idea of sex due to his toxic relationship with Hyun and the other men he'd slept with before. He went from one abusive partner to another abusive partner. In the past chapters we see Shiwoo saying Hyun's name while sleeping with another man, which resulted in him getting slapped. Then later we have Shiwoo saying Yujin's name and then Hyun started choking him.
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The reason why he stayed with Hyun is because Hyun said something like "I'm the only one who knows your past and will accept you" Implying that Shiwoo is too tainted and that he's the kind of person who can never be loved. Shiwoo starts to believe this so thats why he tried pushing Yujin away because he felt that he didnt deserve to be loved by him.

In the chapter where we find out that Hyun has locked his ankle up, Shiwoo thinks to himself something along the lines of "If I just do what I'm told and I stay silent, then I wont get hit again. He hasnt hit me since that day." Shiwoo's mind is so warped that he truly believes that Hyun wont hurt him and will embrace him again if he remains compliant. These are signs of someone who really thinks less of himself and someone who has been so harshly abused mentally and physically that he's unable to think rationally. :/

I really hope this comic has a happy ending and that Shiwoo is able to heal his wounds. I'm glad Yujin is starting to recognize his flaws and i hope that they can both fix their issues and be together in a happier and healthier relationship! (▰˘◡˘▰)

-Mia