I wanted to get into yuri since I'm bored of shoujo and bl as of nw,,,, I read too many GAHAHH
recc me some please :) I like student x student r/s fluffy (≧∀≦)
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/only_need_to_love_once/
Not fluffy but it's still worth the read
I told my mum and she told me
"you have to take into context of his age"
Me: glares at her and stomps out
Her: "why are you always like this? I always support you"
Me: sure whatever you say
Being 16-17 gives him the rights to do that to me!!
"don't tell your future husband"
Me: why?
Her : "you know men don't like girls that have been 'stained'"
Me : *in head* a man that loves me should support me even after knowing everything I've gone through
After much thought I finally told my mum.I realised that after I read all of the comments,I really had the sudden courage to tell my mum.My mum believed me and spoke w my step Father , Uncle and Brother.My Brother said he didn’t remember but it’s up to him if he wants to lie. I’m just Glad that I finally told someone and finally felt the weight on my shoulders set free.I thank all of y’all so much for giving me advice and saying what I had never realised I wanted to hear-that I was not in the wrong..THANK U SO MUCH FOR GUVING ME COURAGE AND I AM SO GOLLY HAPPY NOW!! Except for the fact that I still have no idea how I want to be helped by: my mum asked me to tell her the most comfortable way I would like to be helped..She is even giving me time to think about it!I am so thankful and from my country I send love and hugs to everyone who helped me get through this :)
So I’ve been wanting to tell just anyone for such a damn Long time. When I was 5-6 my eldest Sister left my family of 7 (at that time) and ever since then I’ve been acting as the eldest Sister. I was obv angry at her-still am. When I turned 9 years old something really traumatising happened. My eldest Brother (16 yrs old) and my youngest Sister were in the room and they had locked the door..So I knocked on the door many times till they came out.My Brother then asked everyone in the living room (only my other two brothers were there) to get into the room.I was curious why he did that. I went and asked him what he was talking about w my Sister and he told me that if he were to tell me I was not supposed to tell anyone else.He told me to swear upon god- my mum always told me to keep my swears. He told me that he wanted to get something for my Brother’s bday.He then said that he wanted me to touch him- actually I don’t remember that much- he told me that he had “accidentally” seen my Sister 8 years showering so he asked her to touch his dick as a “payback” LIKE HOW FUCKED UP WAS THAT Anyways he then told me that I was supposed to touch his now.I was like wtf but I swore alr how am I supposed to get out of this?? I was only 9! I srsly didn’t even know wtf I was doing.I didn’t even know why I did that.Why the fuck was I so fucking stupid?! He made me pull down his pants and I was Super scared. I didn’t wanna do it but he went And grabbed my hand and forced me to put my hands on his dick.HE DEN PROCEEDED TO USE ME - 9 YEARS OLD- FOR A FUCKING HANDJOB I was so fucking scared and horrified why in the world was I seeing and doing this??? AFTERWARDS HE
FORCED ME TO TAKE OFF MY PANTS. I was literally horrified and just stunned.He wanted my Sister to pull hers down too! Wtf wtf wtf I- he pulled it down even though I said I didn’t want to And he touched me! HE TOUCHED ME! I FELT SO DISTURBED AND FUCKING SCARED WTF HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL MY MOTHER?! ESPECIALLY SINCE I HAD SWORN AND HE ALSO TOLD ME THAT IF I TOLD MY MUM HE WOULD TELL HER WHAT I DID! I SHOULD HAVE JUST TOLD HER THEN.I wasn’t in the wrong.I pulled up my pants Andy Rambo to the toilet with my Sister. He opened the toilet door and started fapping in front of our faces! Wtf is wrong with him? He came and my Sister and I were crying and screaming.Our brothers in the other room were playing their phones Andy just ignoring us since they couldn’t really hear us.We ran outta the toilet and luckily JUST LUCKILY My parents came back home as soon as we wanted to get out of the house. The next day, I treated him like how I normally would.HOW DID I?! Why the fuck did I not tell anyone?He also tried to lay His hands on me the very next day.I ran away in time.Its been so hard for me.Everyday after that incident, I wore pants that allowed me to tie them Adnan tight as I could so he couldn’t touch me while I was asleep..I still haven’t told anyone..When he was growing older,he started having abusive tendencies.He would get mad at the simplest of things.Once, he broke my brother’s middle finger just because my Brother wasn’t doing his work as soon as he told him to.There were many incidents like that too.Once we had called the police because my Mother has asked us to.He also almost hit my Mother.HE ALSO HAD THE DECENCY TO PRETEND TO BE ALL RELIGIOUS LIKE AND PURE AFTER HE DID ALL THOSE THINGS!!TO THIS DAY HE STILL IS AN ASSHOLE WHO TRUED TO RUIN MY LIFE!HE STILL THINKS HE IS THE ONE WHO RULES OUR HOME AND OUR LIVES.HE STILL THINKS THAT WE SHUD LISTEN TO HIS UTTER BULLCRAP! JUST BECAUSE I ATE CHICKEN SLOWLY DOES NOT MEAN IM SUPPOSED TO GET A FUCKING PUNISHMENT!WHO ARE U TO GIVE ME PUNISHMENTS U FUCKING SEXUAL PREDATOR!I HAVENT EVEN TOLD MY MUM AND MY SISTER DOESNT SEEM TO REMEMBER THAT INCIDENT! I have so many other examples that I would tell but the text is way too Long alr...I just wanna tell someone about the incident and that till this day,it haunts my mind Andy he still hasn’t apologised or owned up to his mistakes.He thinks I won’t tell my Mother even if he has treated me like absolute crap.Worst of all-He is trying to fix our relationship as siblings.Why would I want to try to Be close with him? After he has made my life a living hell?Ive wanted to tell someone.just anyone but I can’t find the courage to say it face to face. I don’t even want to explain.Help me
Oh my goodness I am so sorry that happened to you. That kind of behavior is fucking messed up and no child should EVER go through what you did. That is completely unacceptable and I am really upset that that happened to you and your sister when you guys were so young. Holy shit do you have someone to reach out to? A teacher or social worker or even your doctor? There are always options to find help and I am really sorry that it happened to you. Please reach out to someone you trust because no one should go through this alone.
omg. whew that’s a lot. I understand how you feel hun. I had someone’s close to me violate me in ways I didn’t like and I couldn’t even come to tell my parents. ik it feels like hell every time you think about it ik how you much feel like crying every time you get reminded and that disgusting feeling in your stomach. fist of all he made your life a living hell so why should you reconnect with him? if your not comfortable please try to convey that to him or ignore him. for right now the most important thing here isn’t to tell your parents. and ik trust me ik how fucking scary it is. I always try to talk to my parents, but are scared if they’re going to blame me for being violated or if they’d get mad or what’d happen, but please trust me tell your parents get this off your chest it makes you feel so so much better. your parents aren’t gonna let this slide and if you don’t it just makes you seem more vulnerable to your brother. it’s gonna be alright. if you wanna talk some more I’m always here for you. my dms are always open.
I cant believe something as traumatizing as that happens to you.like even I have a brother who's rude but we get along completely fine and all. But to have like your BROTHER like not even half or stella or anything to do something as indecent as that to you, like I can even barely imagine what you had to go through. I can almost feel that's its haunting you in your dreams and thoughts and that FUCKING ASSHOLE DESERVES THE WORST PUNISHMENT POSSIBLE IN HUMANITY. LIKE TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT YOUNG AND AT SUCH A RIPE AGE GO THROUGH THAT LIKE IS HE EVEN HUMAN. HE DESERVES TO DIE THE WORST AND MOST PAINFUL EVER POSSIBLE DEATH. if I ever encounter you in real life I would burst into cries because I'm the highest cry baby and just hug you
My cousin did the same thing to me when I was 4 all the way till I was almost 11 I was scared and didn’t know better he blamed me for it, saying if I tell anyone they will blame me, he also took pics of me and threatens me by saying if I don’t do something he wants he will post it and show it to my family, I didn’t know what to do. He once masturbated to me while I was asleep, since that Day I always locked my door when sleeping, I never told anyone, I almost told my ex bff bc I thought she would care, when I asked her ‘ can we talk I have something to tell you ‘ she thought that I was saying that I didn’t wanna be friends with her so she ended things there,I wanted to tell someone so bad but I’ve just been afraid. I’m currently 15 and it’s crazy to think that what he did ended only 4 years ago..
I hope that you tell your parents and solve this matter cuz it really will take a lot off your shoulders! I hope this gives you courage to tell them and know that you weren’t in the wrong at all- I thought it’d help cuz I really got courage to tell my parents because many people told me that I wasn’t in the wrong and that I should tell my parents..Loads of crying afterwards but you’d feel at ease! Remember that there are many other people out there backing you up and I’m one of the many who will ..ILY AND I HOPE U FIND TRUE HAPPINESS ONE DAY SOON LIKE NOW ! If u wanna I’ll always be here to talk ( sometimes sharing your problems with a stranger really helps ! )
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