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Minhyung's lifelong desire is simple: to wholly possess Yijae, the man who raised him. Cunningl...

I FOUND THE NOVEL

I FOUND THE NOVEL

Han Sol, a human photocopier who can draw anything she sees exactly the same!One day, she is inspire...

I decided to rewrite this, because yesterday's late-night attempt did not do my feelings justice. I passionately need to get this off my chest; In the face of this seemingly generic BL story, I found my heart beating with excitement and embarrassment. Apparently it's not so generic to me.

That's because I am really invested in this toxic dynamic, and every other, really. Obviously, I didn't wake up one day and decided to salivate over unhealthy relationships, attitudes and behaviours; When it's all you've essentially known, it becomes an addictive source of comfort, both liberating and enslaving for anxiously attached individuals, due to this triggering display of affection: inconsistency and extremity. I wish to keep track of my ever changing thoughts.

I've come to realise late that I can only find the ideal traits I look for in a manic man. This bastard of a male lead is so ingenuinely and deceptively alluring in my eyes. Not necessarily due to his assertiveness, but because he knows when to apply pressure and initiative really naturally. He is confident and certain of himself, cocky, competitive and petty. His hidden motives, occasional grotesque choice of words, willful submission, misleading sweetness, and most importantly; The possibility that he possesses the drive to push someone to the edge and eventually lead them to their death is so attractive to me. In an unconventional way, because it reveals the spirit of a non-conformist, an interest towards that which goes beyond normalcy and the collectively compromised moral boundary.

It's not just the traits I am fond of, I believe his short temper and narcissistic, derogatory know-it-all attitude bring so much depth into his and Haewon's (MC's) twisted relationship too. In this sense, I can say that a good and satisfactory love is one which stimulates the most conflicting and difficult emotions to face. One which leaves you yearning, devastated, doubtful; One which, no matter how genuine it appears, possesses secrets to be uncovered and confronted. It keeps you on the edge, constantly limerent. And such a love inspires self discovery and introspection, it cultivates situational awareness and a grasp of various social cues, it challenges the boundaries and limitations of your feelings, tolerance and sanity.

As much as I like to deny it, you do only become closely acquainted with someone once they're near destruction, at their most vulnerable. That's why I was enthralled when Haewon acknowledged the untrustworthy mysticism surrounding Wujin (ML), yet decided to condone his own attraction and play into a dangerous love, aware that he's going to bear the consequences of his own feelings eventually. And I actually quite like and relate to him. His "whatever makes me feel best, idgaf" approach to life, his distanced demeanour before the world, the way he selects whoever to be influenced by, the dilemmas he faces regarding the concept of death and the comfort he finds within solitude. When he clocked Wujin in that initial car scene, I was satisfied for life, LOL.

I think both of the leading characters have got good depth. Haewon's attraction to Wujin is no longer superficial, but scented by the grief and guilt he feels about Taeshin's ("friend's") death, despite his attempts to detach himself from it. I suspect Wujin to be a subcategory of a clinically diagnosed psychopath, or, at least that's what I hope he is. That would explain why an attorney like him speaks in such a vulgar way towards his clients and opponents, despite the relative discipline he must have been provided with in his master's degree. Why he slips up and reveals how little he thinks of grape (Haewon's damage to the perpetrator cannot provide a viable basis for a charge of attempted homicide, just his deception can, ascertained by my forensics professor — I think Wujin was only frightening Haewon to instil a sense of dependency within him). Otherwise, he'd just be a pathetic bitchass hoe, and I'd dislike that. It's nice to take a step back and analyse a story sometimes. You'd be surprised just by how deep it can turn out to be.

Haewon, a violinist who has no interest in others and lives an unmotivated life.In his daily life, h...

27 people did   /   22 want to do

27 people did   /   22 want to do

it seems like "yura hyung" has got a case of both DID and Dissociative Amnesia. and i've got a few passing thoughts to note to myself and whoever's interested.

DID involves a lack of connection among a person’s sense of identity, memory and consciousness. so a diagnosed person possesses less of a personality, it's devided and developed into either docile or extreme extents of the person's united consciousness as a coping mechanism to traumatic situations. the way these feelings and ways of thought are presented by each alter differs to the nature of the feeling itself and where it stems from and is not to be confused with a foreign personality.

in this case, both aspects of "yura hyung" are real. and i believe one represents the desire and impulsive behaviour he has forced himself to downplay/overlook/suppress throughout his life, whereas the other stands for his conservative nature, the image he felt the need to maintain by concealing any feeling he deemed unbefitting. and both of them identify as "yura hyung", making the concept easier to grasp.

due to the intense emotional pressure, yura's feelings were utterly devided. the desire (night hyung) carries the memories of affection and attraction, the raw emotion towards the MC. the suppression (day hyung) remembers merely the distanced version of those interactions and possibly every other interaction which was infested with unbefitting emotions. the disappearance of an alter may equal the acceptance of an emotion/situation.

it seems like "yura hyung" has got a case of both DID and Dissociative Amnesia. and i've got a few passing thoughts to note to myself and whoever's interested.

DID involves a lack of connection among a person’s sense of identity, memory and consciousness. so a diagnosed person possesses less of a personality, it's devided and developed into either docile or extreme extents of the person's united consciousness as a coping mechanism to traumatic situations. the way these feelings and ways of thought are presented by each alter differs to the nature of the feeling itself and where it stems from and is not to be confused with a foreign personality.

in this case, both aspects of "yura hyung" are real. and i believe one represents the desire and impulsive behaviour he has forced himself to downplay/overlook/suppress throughout his life, whereas the other stands for his conservative nature, the image he felt the need to maintain by concealing any feeling he deemed unbefitting. and both of them identify as "yura hyung", making the concept easier to grasp.

due to the intense emotional pressure, yura's feelings were utterly devided. the desire (night hyung) carries the memories of affection and attraction, the raw emotion towards the MC. the suppression (day hyung) remembers merely the distanced version of those interactions and possibly every other interaction which was infested with unbefitting emotions. the disappearance of an alter may equal the acceptance of an emotion/situation.

it seems like "yura hyung" has got a case of both DID and Dissociative Amnesia. and i've got a few passing thoughts to note to myself and whoever's interested.

DID involves a lack of connection among a person’s sense of identity, memory and consciousness. so a diagnosed person possesses less of a personality, it's devided and developed into either docile or extreme extents of the person's united consciousness as a coping mechanism to traumatic situations. the way these feelings and ways of thought are presented by each alter differs to the nature of the feeling itself and where it stems from and is not to be confused with a foreign personality.

in this case, both aspects of "yura hyung" are real. and i believe one represents the desire and impulsive behaviour he has forced himself to downplay/overlook/suppress throughout his life, whereas the other stands for his conservative nature, the image he felt the need to maintain by concealing any feeling he deemed unbefitting. and both of them identify as "yura hyung", making the concept easier to grasp.

due to the intense emotional pressure, yura's feelings were utterly devided. the desire (night hyung) carries the memories of affection and attraction, the raw emotion towards the MC. the suppression (day hyung) remembers merely the distanced version of those interactions and possibly every other interaction which was infested with unbefitting emotions. the disappearance of an alter may equal the acceptance of an emotion/situation.

rereading parts of the story again and, while i always gush about the poignant dialogues and story overall, i’m reminded once again how beautifully complex the characters are, jinsol especially. while we were still reading the story through saegye’s eyes alone, jinsol’s dialogues, views, and philosophy are complex and so poetically articulated that—despite the obvious warning signs from his words themselves—you can’t help but be drawn towards him. idk man i just really love jinsol a lot

tldr; interesting and original premise but poor execution. All the more disappointing because i had such a high hope for this manhwa.


(Spoiler alert)

The story is filled with too many plotholes, the rule of this world was so arbitrary that it became a joke, and the characters' actions and motivations made no sense -- for example, a False could tell the truth in writing, so why the hell did Jinseol get all angsty about not being able to be honest with his mom and sister? One of his motivations to steal Saegye's ability was because he wanted to truthfully say "i love you" to people -- just freakin text them! And also, putting aside the outrageously Dumb logic of swapping identities by kissing, why did Jinseol need to make Saegye fall for him in the first place? If all he needed was a kiss, he could've manipulated him or made up any excuse. He could get a kiss from Tan, but not from Saegye? And that public reveal about Dares were written so freaking poorly i actually laughed. The author made it as if it was Saegye's decision to expose the Dares (and by extension, his feelings for Jinseol) that changed the world, but what would he have done if Caesar didn't want to get involved? Wasn't it HER decision that mattered the most, in the end? She was a deus ex machina who had all the means and power to reveal Dares without getting buried by the government. She was the one who influenced Saegye the most in this matter -- at first, she didn't see any benefit when Saegye wanted to help Tan, so she discouraged him from exposing the Dares. But once she had her own agenda, she was the one who encouraged Saegye to expose himself and helped him to do it smoothly (with no real consequences shown, what the HELL). So why tf did she tell Tan that all of these huge changes for the freakin humanity was all because of Saegye? Without her, Saegye's choice or feelings for Jinseol meant shit in resolving the conflict, let alone changing the world -- and i hate that a lot (also she kissed a minor, so screw her)

tldr; interesting and original premise but poor execution. All the more disappointing because i had such a high hope for this manhwa.


(Spoiler alert)

The story is filled with too many plotholes, the rule of this world was so arbitrary that it became a joke, and the characters' actions and motivations made no sense -- for example, a False could tell the truth in writing, so why the hell did Jinseol get all angsty about not being able to be honest with his mom and sister? One of his motivations to steal Saegye's ability was because he wanted to truthfully say "i love you" to people -- just freakin text them! And also, putting aside the outrageously Dumb logic of swapping identities by kissing, why did Jinseol need to make Saegye fall for him in the first place? If all he needed was a kiss, he could've manipulated him or made up any excuse. He could get a kiss from Tan, but not from Saegye? And that public reveal about Dares were written so freaking poorly i actually laughed. The author made it as if it was Saegye's decision to expose the Dares (and by extension, his feelings for Jinseol) that changed the world, but what would he have done if Caesar didn't want to get involved? Wasn't it HER decision that mattered the most, in the end? She was a deus ex machina who had all the means and power to reveal Dares without getting buried by the government. She was the one who influenced Saegye the most in this matter -- at first, she didn't see any benefit when Saegye wanted to help Tan, so she discouraged him from exposing the Dares. But once she had her own agenda, she was the one who encouraged Saegye to expose himself and helped him to do it smoothly (with no real consequences shown, what the HELL). So why tf did she tell Tan that all of these huge changes for the freakin humanity was all because of Saegye? Without her, Saegye's choice or feelings for Jinseol meant shit in resolving the conflict, let alone changing the world -- and i hate that a lot (also she kissed a minor, so screw her)

tldr; interesting and original premise but poor execution. All the more disappointing because i had such a high hope for this manhwa.


(Spoiler alert)

The story is filled with too many plotholes, the rule of this world was so arbitrary that it became a joke, and the characters' actions and motivations made no sense -- for example, a False could tell the truth in writing, so why the hell did Jinseol get all angsty about not being able to be honest with his mom and sister? One of his motivations to steal Saegye's ability was because he wanted to truthfully say "i love you" to people -- just freakin text them! And also, putting aside the outrageously Dumb logic of swapping identities by kissing, why did Jinseol need to make Saegye fall for him in the first place? If all he needed was a kiss, he could've manipulated him or made up any excuse. He could get a kiss from Tan, but not from Saegye? And that public reveal about Dares were written so freaking poorly i actually laughed. The author made it as if it was Saegye's decision to expose the Dares (and by extension, his feelings for Jinseol) that changed the world, but what would he have done if Caesar didn't want to get involved? Wasn't it HER decision that mattered the most, in the end? She was a deus ex machina who had all the means and power to reveal Dares without getting buried by the government. She was the one who influenced Saegye the most in this matter -- at first, she didn't see any benefit when Saegye wanted to help Tan, so she discouraged him from exposing the Dares. But once she had her own agenda, she was the one who encouraged Saegye to expose himself and helped him to do it smoothly (with no real consequences shown, what the HELL). So why tf did she tell Tan that all of these huge changes for the freakin humanity was all because of Saegye? Without her, Saegye's choice or feelings for Jinseol meant shit in resolving the conflict, let alone changing the world -- and i hate that a lot (also she kissed a minor, so screw her)

tldr; interesting and original premise but poor execution. All the more disappointing because i had such a high hope for this manhwa.


(Spoiler alert)

The story is filled with too many plotholes, the rule of this world was so arbitrary that it became a joke, and the characters' actions and motivations made no sense -- for example, a False could tell the truth in writing, so why the hell did Jinseol get all angsty about not being able to be honest with his mom and sister? One of his motivations to steal Saegye's ability was because he wanted to truthfully say "i love you" to people -- just freakin text them! And also, putting aside the outrageously Dumb logic of swapping identities by kissing, why did Jinseol need to make Saegye fall for him in the first place? If all he needed was a kiss, he could've manipulated him or made up any excuse. He could get a kiss from Tan, but not from Saegye? And that public reveal about Dares were written so freaking poorly i actually laughed. The author made it as if it was Saegye's decision to expose the Dares (and by extension, his feelings for Jinseol) that changed the world, but what would he have done if Caesar didn't want to get involved? Wasn't it HER decision that mattered the most, in the end? She was a deus ex machina who had all the means and power to reveal Dares without getting buried by the government. She was the one who influenced Saegye the most in this matter -- at first, she didn't see any benefit when Saegye wanted to help Tan, so she discouraged him from exposing the Dares. But once she had her own agenda, she was the one who encouraged Saegye to expose himself and helped him to do it smoothly (with no real consequences shown, what the HELL). So why tf did she tell Tan that all of these huge changes for the freakin humanity was all because of Saegye? Without her, Saegye's choice or feelings for Jinseol meant shit in resolving the conflict, let alone changing the world -- and i hate that a lot (also she kissed a minor, so screw her)

I need to see him suck her tits soon !!!!

Note: This work is not be be confused with the oneshot collection manga under the same name by the s...

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