
Having a rollercoaster ride of emotions reading this. First, I felt the pain of the FL and cried alot for her and ofc I cursed the ML so much. But now that I knew his story i feel bad and i pity him. Im getting frustrated with the FL for refusing to acknowledge her lack of awareness with her surrounding and him. Bruhh its not her fault tho. Atleast shes getting the best charactr development.

I just read the novel.. Matthias is crazy but i love it so much im getting obsessed with him if youre not into dark romance save yourself from headache and leave.

Yep and also the hottest grand duke in town who's superior in every aspect in life. A man more than capable of doing everything except expressing his overwhelming desire and love towards her in a healthy way coz he grew up with some f'd up way of living only high aristocrats would know. He would absolutely do everything to have all of her, both her best and worst... and she hates that she actually loves it. BUT not me, i know exactly what i like and its these twisted love stories and dark romances thats why im here.

Maybe? Luckily though I have a deep understanding of myself and my healed traumas and i know that just because i like some things doesnt necessarily mean i want them to manifest in real life. And just because i think about something doesnt mean i need to act on them. Fictional stories like these scratches the itch you cant quite reach ya know, and its just for that purpose. Im more curious as to why you read it all the way here if you hate it so much?

Just because i healed doesnt mean i become a completely different person. My experiences still makes me who i am, im still a sub but now with awareness ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭ . We cant heal from something we arent fully aware of. So unlike before where i kept hating on myself for having weird thoughts, sabotaging, denying and getting myself into dangerous situations i dont understand why, Now im just chill af. I recognize the pattern and know if my mind is just being silly so i dont react on them, things cant control and trigger me when i know where theyre coming from now. That also means my life has been soo peaceful and no drama whatsoever for 5+ yrs! Welp. Therefore these fictional stories are my go to when i just wana feel thrilled but not get myself killed lol. I tamed my demons i just think of it now as my little pet, i give them little treats from time to time ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

Besides, dark romances like this isnt really just as shallow as u think. We know life isnt black and white. These stories are about whats in between, the fine line between pain and pleasure if u wana put it lol. The two were already attracted to each other in the first place which is always the case. But so many things prevent them from forming relationship with each other like normal people do. Difference in status and responsibilities ofc play a huge role but both also have severe unhealed trauma and baggage that fogs their perspective . Their disposition and values in life are really different but thats also why they are drawn to each other like magnet. Lack of communication and self awareness plays a huge part in the drama. And itl all be resolved at the end of the story. And again these plots only applies if two are really compatible, and lets be honest, attractive. Lol.

Okay tbh I'm not gonna judge you cause at the end of the day I was reading this story too.. and now that you're saying that I might keep reading just because I'm curious as to how they could possibly end up together... I might not like it still because u know, there's a lot of misogyny in stories like this.. but yh
Dropped. Only good at first.
Idk if you’ve read the whole thing, but honestly it’s been so good lately I check it everyday maybe it’s just preference.
Bro your pfp is questionable
I see. l'll probably pick it up again when it gets completed.
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It’s a black girl? I’m a black girl?
CHILL GIRL I WAS TALKING ABT MATTHIAS WHY DO YOU ASSUME I'M RACIST BRO I OOVE BLACK GIRLS
I didn’t say ANYTHING about racism. Dude r u good…
Isn't anything associated with black is racist when you talk to a black person, dw I'm not a guy and you need to chill out I was backing up for you suddenly you lashed out on me and left that guy alone
Dude I’m not lashing out at you. And I never called you racist. If anything you’re the one “yelling” typing in all caps constantly. No one is bashing you. You’re the one who needs to chill. Idk where you’re from but not everything associated with black is racist. Honestly I thought you might’ve been talking about my pfp’s cleavage or something, not her race. I only thought you were talking to me cause your message was right underneath mine.
Also there is no need to back me up. Not everything is an argument to constantly defend yourself, I commented my opinion and that person responded that they’ll check it out soon. There was no need to “back me up” I’m not sure if English isn’t your first language and maybe you got something confused or if you’re really this defensive constantly. We are online reading illegal webtoon uploads. Take a chill pill.