Aria's Favorite

Anyone know where I can find the novel if it has one

BEWARE THESE R HUGE MEGA INSANE SPOILERS
these spoilers include description of rape/SA please kindly leave if these subjects disturb you in any way.



brief recap + info:

some of yall might of guessed it: its the 2nd life of both mc and ml.
ML remembers everything except MC doesnt at all, although he has nightmares of his first life.
to add: I noticed manhwa chaps and novels chaps r almost the same (ex: ch 1 manhwa = ch 1 novel)




ok lets start; (im only talking about important details)


When does the 1st life storytime start?: around chaps 72-73

Whats happening after ch 41 in the manhwa? (upcoming updates):
MC learns about how to make perfume for a few chaps. ML offers MC a whole new perfume company for him under his own name: Sejin, and decides to make MC the ceo of the company. MC meets the employees, have dinner w them, etc.. (theres gonna be 1 sex scene after the dinner w the employees) MC receives the news that his father has been arrested for tax invasion and so on. MC realized that it was ML's doing that his family/haeshin coop. was going down. MC felt devasted bc it was his family but ML did it because MC was being mistreated w his own family and gaslighted by his dad to keep working for him so for MC's sake he exposed them. ML got help from MC's secretary btw. ML's precise reasoning: “In my eyes, they were abusers, but to you, they were the only family you had.”
1-2 chaps later, they have sex again but this time MC asked ML to imprint him since ML was the only one left for MC after the whole family situation, but at the end ML didnt imprint him. MC kind of displeased by this situation, stopped sleeping in ML's room and even kind of stopped talking to him bc ML was the one who cut ties w mc's family and now he was alone but ML refused to imprint him? After a f ew talks, they started talking A BIT ONLY again. ML's grandfather died and his brother also disappeared. MC decided to join the funeral with ML since he wanted to fix things at the same time after what happened w the imprinting situation. (btw this funeral is like 2 days long or smt) During a meal, while they were drinking, ML told MC about his side and how he felt and how he liked MC and he didnt want this to be a contracted marriage and also that MC should be the one to decide if they should date or not. Basically he didnt want to force MC to date him or to be in any forced relationship and do whatever was right for MC. After all that and when they came back home, ML got his rut and they almost had sex. ML ate sleeping pills + inhibitors and said this before he went to sleep: “… … You died before my eyes.” which made MC obviously confused. After that rut, ML decame awfully distant with MC BUT at the same time, MC started opening up abt his insomnia and other issues. Later on, MC finally launched his perfume company but ML never showed up to the opening ceremony. ML started avoiding MC by coming home late often too. Until one day ML told MC to end the marriage and that MC should leave whenever he wanted to. MC was completely dumbfounded and confused bc ML said a few days earlier how he liked him but now he said to leave? He felt betrayed. MC hurried to the study where ML was mid way through packinh/ getting ready to leave, and yells at ML how wrong he was to say that and why he said that. He questionned everything and finally yells ''do u think ill die infront of you?'' (MC doesnt know the context and just repeated what ML said during his rut out of anger) and starts yelling even more and questionned how weird it was for ML to get his heat cycles right everytime and every odd coincidence and if he was ever honest w him. He felt like a pet and an object: he was taken care of but he didnt know anything abt ML at all. ML felt like he didnt hv the right to date MC bc of what hes done (view 2nd paragraph) thats why he wanted MC to leave him (this was not mentionned btw) MC begged ML to let him stay w him and ML finally gave him and they had sex and he finally imprinted him: 1st life memories came flooded in in MC's mind. - 1st life storyline starts-




1st life summary: starts with storytime of MC and how he was adopted by his current father: MC left his abusive parents and clinged on a random rich person which happened to be Haeshin's CEO aka his adoptive dad. MC was later arranged a marriage with ML. ML did not really give a fuck about MC at all tbh: he was awfully dry and only thought of it as a contract. During MC's first heat, he just kinda ignored him, 2ND heat they fucked bc MC asked him to, but keep it mind ML was awfully rude/rough in bed (legit no foreplay+he bled) Later on, both MC and ML started being kind to eachother: they would eat together, greet eachother in the mornings, etc.. MC was FRAMED by his whole family for tax invasion and was sent to prison but luckily ML bought him out of it. Basically MC's family used him so Haeshin company would not get caught in those problems. Basically after he got out of prison, bc of ML, his family totally cut him off. !!! MC was asked to steal a document in Ml's study which MC obviously did for his father way before he was framed by his family since father was like yk how i raised u blah blah.
This sadly was the reason both MC and ML grew apart. While MC and ML were starting to like each other and even having comforting sex, ML felt absolutely betrayed by MC for not being honest earlier about stealing the files and MC couldve even come up with a reason and straihht up told ML he stole it for his own good. ML started ignoring MC around house and it detoriated MC's mental/physical health since he craved love and attention; he starved himself too. One day ML came home drunk and MC begged on his knees to not ignore him and give him another chance and how hed do ANYTHING for ML to forgive him (MC's family alr left him so if ML leaves him, he'll be all alone and he was scared of that) ML forcefully made MC to blowjob him and even told him to act like a prostitute if he wanted to be forgiven. MC throat was swelled up for a few days due to this incident. Meanwhile ML was at a funeral, MC went into heat again but this time ML's brother also randomly came and RAPED the shit out of MC (ch 86) it was disturbely written. MC who got so fucked up after the rape, called his secretary and asked him to pick him up to leave cause he was finally done w this place. ML went to MC's house and noticed how bruised MC looked like and demanded who did that to him, but obviously MC being fed up with the whole situation just told ML he slept w his brother (didnt say it was rape at all) ML being mad, he rapes MC and forcefully imprints him w pain (ugh it was so hard to read that part). Later on, the Moment where MC wakes up from all the sex w ML, hes been brought to ML's mansion again. THIS time he was confined: he can only sleep in ML's bed and if he wanted to leave to another room, he needed his bodyguard to follow him. (its been several months from the raping incident too) MC would starve himself and just felt depressed the whole time. Until the doctor told him he was pregnant: MC didnt know whos child it was; ML's or ML's brother. MC finally had enough and didnt want to give birth to a successor, he went to ML's study and kills himself.

after imprint (2nd life/present): MC still decided to leave ML. ''If you were going to let me know about such painful emotions, you shouldn't have imprinted on me. If you knew that emotions are so contagious, you should have been a little more careful.'' and ended the marriage and left w a suitcase. 3 months have passed and ML decides tomake a random contract/proejct in order to meet w MC bc he missed him dearly. Bc of the contract between MC’s perfume company and ML’s company, they met up every single day in MC’s office (ML wanted to do this for 3 weeks straight since he missed MC sm). After their contract/project which took like a week or so, ML and MC left together and had sex after a company dinner. They had sex bc MC’s heat and ML’s rut aligned bc they eere both imprinted/bonded whatever u call it


OK I ONLY READ TILL 92 SORRY POOKIES! ill update when i finish the novel:3
sorry for bad english btw （￣へ￣）i mostly speak french
ANYWAYS please lmk any questions or precisions in my answer:3

I honestly can appreciate Taku as a fictional character because I do find him interesting and layered. But I am TIRED of ppl claiming he was incredibly sincere and cared about Haesoo so much. Idk if some of y’all skipped these parts, or chose to ignore it... but pls do see the following examples of Taku's manipulative and selfish behavior, and taking advantage of Haesoo:

Exhibit 1 - He wanted to use his sex tape to guilt trip Haesoo in their relationship. He said: “I hoped that guilt would bring you to me”. It only didn't happen cause Haesoo turned down publishing the sex tape. It was not that Taku backed away and stopped himself because he realized how fcked up his actions were. It made Haesoo uncomfortable and weirded out too,, pretty sure this can count as sexual/workplace harassment lmao

Exhibit 2 - In chapter 96’s flashback Taku says "i just want to read the story he writes about me when i'm gone” (his friend calls him an asshole too lol). This is a throwback to Leo telling Joowon over the phone about how Taku uses his models for his work, and then tosses them aside with little regard. He was planning the same with Haesoo, until he later got “attached”. that’s karma ig~

Exhibit 3 - Haesoo expressed that he was unsure/not ready for a relationship. Yet literally RIGHT AFTER his quasi breakup with Joowon, Taku is pressuring him like, "I'm still waiting for an answer". It's weird cause Haesoo's wounds are fresh from his breakup, and Taku is NOT stupid. He knew this and persisted. Haesoo shouldn't have agreed and that's his own fault (HS is not entirely a victim here lets make that clear). Meanwhile Taku? He was flat out taking advantage of Haesoo's broken emotions.

Exhibit 4 - Quote: “It must have been painful for him no doubt, but I still wanted to see more". This was Taku's thought during a photoshoot with Haesoo, which later made Haesoo cry at the exhibition (Chapter 92/93). Taku told Haesoo: "think about having sex with someone you love, but you can never see them again". This was RIGHT AFTER Joowon and Haesoo's big separation. To inflict emotional pain in your partner, and then say you were interested in seeing more? Bruh no… just no.

Exhibit 5 - Quotes: “Every time I saw how sad you were, it felt good.” “You were lonely. You need me because of your unhappiness.” —Chapter 58. This is from Taku's monologue of how Haesoo’s unhappiness made him feel good, because he felt depended on by Haesoo for comfort // hs get away from this man pls haha

Exhibit 6 - Another quote: “If I can’t beat him [jw] one-on-one, then I at least want you [hs] to feel bad” —Chapter 66 ...Can Taku stop wishing for Haesoo depression, like he's already sad jfc

Exhibit 7 - "I want to bury inside the void he [jw] left in you. And later I'll push him aside however I can." ...honestly this quote struck me as Taku taking advantage of Haesoo's heartbreak and being hella 'opportunistic' (btw: Taku called HIMSELF that in his interview in chapter 5 so I mean... lol). Maybe that's just me though idk.

Exhibit 8 - In Chapter 84 when Joowon's scandal broke out, notice how Taku starts texting "are you okay?" to Haesoo, then deletes it and instead tells him to stop caring about Joowon? This moment said a lot to me, because it's the fact that Taku is SO AWARE of how Haesoo must be feeling, but he purposely chooses to ignore that and cares more about winning and keeping him away from Joowon. Kinda struck me as the opposite from Joowon's phone call after Haesoo's modelling news dropped in chapter 68. JW asked Haesoo to not do the exhibition because he knew its not what HS wanted (he is right: haesoo always wanted to be known for his writing not his face, and felt crappy abt it all day). But when Haesoo said he was fine, JW told him he'll always be on Haesoo's side even as a hyung/friend. He made it so clear how he cares the most about HS simply being okay, even after Haesoo left him.

Exhibit 9 - Taku tells Haesoo he hopes he has a hard time with Joowon after their breakup (Chapter 99). It felt wrong to me cause Haesoo genuinely apologized and gently let him down in their breakup... but Taku tries to make Haesoo feel worse. I honestly understand being spiteful towards exes who mistreated you in some way. HOWEVER with this relationship: it seemed to highlight Taku’s selfishness. Taku is out here acting like Haesoo wronged him for simply not liking him back in a 1 month TRIAL relationship. As if he wasnt the one who initiated and *insisted* on their relationship. As if he was unaware of Haesoo’s feelings for Joowon. As if Taku didnt say it was better that they use each other. Him wanting to make Haesoo feel bad over this is wild considering all the conditions of their relationship and his past manipulation too.
((Also, Taku in this scene to Haesoo: “Sorry I told you I'm not a good person” … Like sir, if you know you’re not a good person, THEN FIX IT. Joowon spent almost 40 chapters self-reflecting n trying to correct the mistakes he made, when he never *intentionally* wanted to hurt Haesoo lol. Meanwhile some Taku fans: “omg he’s a good person that was wronged. haesoo never deserved him!” lmaooo))

///end of examples

Anyway I’m gonna have to start sending this to some of y’all who selectively read Taku’s character to all hell. He was really manipulative with Haesoo and had some bad intentions. And when Taku grew to stop being a robot and showed “real feelings” getting all attached to Haesoo and liking him more than he expected, he was STILL selfish and wanted Haesoo to suffer for him. He didn’t get enough development to stray away from that, but imo that’s exactly why he’s the second lead
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How could Seungho not fall in love with Nakyum?
It is not only that Nakyum is the cutest thing he ever lay his eyes on but also because Nakyum totally disarms him from his cynic view of people.
Look at the people and society that Seungho is used to and how his main way to deal with people is to assume no one is to be trusted and deserves contempt.
- He mocks the high society he lives in and enjoys to provoke them with his libertine behavior; This is clear in the scene where he tells Jihwa that, since the lords are all already expecting the worst of him, he better not disappoint.
- He clearly doesn't trust his circle of fuck buddies and he doesn't let them get personal (turns out he isn't wrong. Jihwa had a spy on his house. The other one started a plot with an assassin).
- He obviously has a hatred for his father and it becomes more clear that it has to do with his taste for men.
- Inhun never had a chance to fool Seungho. From the very first meeting Seungho could read Inhun as just another fraud, someone who pay lip service to nobles and driven by selfish ambition. As his feelings for NK grew, it must have been frustrating to watch NK idolizing Inhun as someone who deserved deference.
Seungho survives in his society by outsmarting and being defensive and on guard against betrayal and falsehood all around him. His first assumption when NK reached out on his own to be intimate was that he was doing it under Inhun's orders.
Nakyum, with his pure heart and honesty is something Seungho isn't prepared for. He gets disarmed by Nakyum's lack of malice. Neither is the fact that someone so clearly in disadvantage keeps challenging him. One of the first scenes when we see Seungho is getting intrigued by Nakyum is when he thinks how Nakyum had the courage to stand up to him even though he looked so afraid. (The chapter where Nakyum defended Inhun's against Seungho's mockery of his poem as plagiarism).
Last, just like Seungho only knows one kind of people his whole life --- the kind that cannot be trusted --- Seungho only know one way to treat people, a range between sarcasm and violence but we see Seungho flustered that his method doesn't work with Nakyum. He clearly wants to please Nakyum and get from him the affection he gives to Inhun but all he has done by force and intimidation only had the opposite effect.
Nakyum is the first person who makes Seungho feel bad for something he did. Seungho killed one person, knifed other, he humiliated Jihwa and the other guy before him, and we don't see him flinch or getting one second bothered by any of it. However, every time he caused harm to Nakyum, we saw him flustered and on edge. Nakyum forces Seungho to feel remorse, guilt when before there was nothing.
To me, this is a tale of two virgins and get their virginity lost to one another. Nakyum was literally virgin of lust and sex but Seungho is virgin of humanity and the feeling of caring for someone and Nakyum is his first.
So, the path for Nakyum to fall in love with Seungho may be more complicated but Seungho, for all the might power he has, never stood a chance the minute Nakyum walked into his life.

let's recap shall we?

- Mom never wanted him or cared for him and neglected the hell out him and so did his father

- his dad made his mom who was an omega prostitute herself and even planned having him do the same after she ran away and left him with that psycho (god knows what he grew up watching)

- got passed around from neglectful relative to neglectful relative having the most unstable and horrible all around childhood enviroment

- Grew up hearing nothing but bad things about omegas and feared being one

- He lived his life thinking he was an alpha and probably knew the truth since the beggining too just didn't wanna believe he was one and held on to that lie to survive

- wasn't able to finish school like everyone else and wasn't good at anything other than math which made him struggle for money and stability hence the slightly greedy side of him

- Got pregnant against his will, YES DON'T IGNORE THIS DOJIN KNOTTED HIM EVEN THOUGH HE KEPT TELLING HIM NOT TO.

- found out later his father was actually a good father to his other kids just not him (adding insult to injury there)

- He was surprised dojin's family didn't scream, beat up or cursed at them because THAT'S what he thought families do (this actually broke my heart a little not gonna lie to you)

-He got pregnant at the young age of 21 not even knowing what being a family needless to say a PARENT even does

- it has been shown SEVERAL times how very little selfworth he has or atleast how badly he sees himself

I personally really relate to hyesung because he obviously struggles expressing his feelings, I have similar issues and for some reason I struggle to say "I love you" even to my parents and my life was normal.

Bonus:
- He loves byul and wanted dojin's family to love him too even if they didn't aprove of him personally

- cares for heeso despite how much they fight

- Loves dojin's family and clearly enjoys the parental love they give him since he's never had it before

-and YES he loves dojin too, it's just his personality -_-

*also stop complainig about how the new chapter isn't about the second couple just because u prefer them, they're cute and I Love them too but they're not the main focus of manhwa so complaining makes no sense*