♡'s Things

This girl asked for my Instagram through my friend, and before that, I had already told my friend to let her know that I wasn’t planning on dating anyone until I got my life together. My friend tol her that, but she still wanted my Instagram anyway. I only agreed to give it to her because I found her attractive, but honestly, that was probably the worst mistake I’ve ever made. Once we started talking, she came on really strong. She was constantly texting, complimenting me, saying sweet things, and acting super invested right from the start. It felt like I was being love bombed. It was overwhelming, but it also felt kind of nice because it seemed like she genuinely cared. Then, about two weeks in, she confessed her feelings for me. I told her that I definitely liked her too and would’ve dated her under different circumstances, but I wasn’t in the right place mentally or emotionally to start a relationship. I felt like I needed to heal first before jumping into anything that might mess with my peace, so I turned her down. Also, something I forgot to mention is that I have super strict parents and wasn’t really allowed to date at all. But this time, I had finally convinced them to let me, so before making any moves, I wanted to be sure she was the right person and that I was fully ready. Everything seemed okay for a couple of weeks, but then she started dry texting, just replying once a day with short messages like “no,” “ok,” or “yes.” I got the message loud and clear that she didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. Then today, I found out she has a boyfriend now. And I can’t stop thinking this is all my fault. I really wanted to be with her. She honestly felt like a clone of me. It just sucks thinking I might’ve let something real slip away, and yes i definitely know that this was my mistake but i also feel like she lead me on or did I idfk.

I have this bestfriend, I like her but I don't know if she like me back. I asked her if she dated anyone in our school and she said yes, she told me all their names. The problem is, is that they all have that clear skin, straight eyebrows, perfect teeth, and everyone talks to them. and im weird, i have pimples, cricked teeth, uneven stupid eyebrows, i dont socialize and i study alot. I really wanna know how I should upgrade myself, or if anyone have any, like, tips on how to make her like me pls tell me. I'm to poor to afford braces or expensive skin care where I live. I think she thinks I'm gay, idk. Help a friend out