Akaito

No wonder Garon is fucking psychotic tbh. Mommy issues will do it to you. Though I’m like, how much of what’s wrong with Garon is just his mother mistreating him, and how much of it is just something…genetic? Heriditary? She herself clearly wasn’t right in the head, which did lead to mistreatment, but no matter what like…something has to be a little wrong with you yourself to be able to order a bunch of imae to tear apart and eat your mother right in front of you? And watch unflinchingly? I mean it’s clear from how Garon still thinks about his mother, especially in this chapter’s context seeing how respectful and self-sacrificing Raonhiljo’s mother is, that he felt Something about her—that he probably longed for a more nurturing mother. But sheesh.

It is interesting though that that’s one of the threads connecting the three together…aaahhh there’s a lot I feel like I could say about it both in terms of the story itself but also on a more meta level. Like Garon being responsible for the death of MC’s mother and now Raonhiljo’s mother—even though I think his killing of MC’s mother was more inadvertent, it still feels significant now with the context of this chapter…like he’s specifically punishing every mother for the sins of his own mother you know. Robbing people of the love and care and etc he was denied in retaliation. This feels more like a stretch but I wonder if it might also be his own twisted way of getting closer to MC and/or Raonhiljo’s, not just for the sake of the hunt but also like…emotionally speaking you know? I think last chapter he talked about having a hole in his heart and how MC was filling it (or it felt like he could feel it). People who still have living and loving mothers don’t have that hole, so he might as well gouge it out himself. I dunno, I’m yapping.

Even though there’s lots to be said about the moms in the story my little #misogyny #patriarchy alarm is ringing a bit because like…anyway I know it’s not that deep but it kinda is a little that deep when some of the most prominent and impactful women in here are all mothers and either pure magnificent nurturing angels or evil demons and they ALL DEAD shdhdh maybe it’s on me for not remembering more specific details on ‘em but hello, nuance? Like fair they are secondary characters but it’s just making me ponder you know. And it’s not even just about them I’m also just like where the papas at. Where the dads. What were they up to where’d they go. I. guess dying in combat and/or neglecting their familial duties too. LOL

the moment helm said he’d make his brother pay/the brother asked what helm could do i was like “he’s gonna kill himself” and i was right. fjhffgfjd they’re both so crazy. or rather the brother is so crazy helm has no choice but to adapt to it