
up to chapter 68 spoilers
personally i think the new attractive eunuch + shi sui (bug loving maid) + sui rei (lady that faked her death) all kinda look alike and might be related
seems pretty apparent that the author is setting shi sui to play a big role since she's so oddly knowledgable about things as well + seems to have a murky background
maybe their people are slowing infultrating the palace and seem to be after jinshi's life

this manga's amazing so far
the characters and their conflict feel so real -- instead of a momentary misunderstanding that causes some drama (like a lot of other bl/shoujo plots), the issues between the characters stem from their own flaws and insecurities
the author has always been amazing at creating deeper, complex characters and storylines and i think it really shines in this piece:
she doesn't rely on more unique, complicated situations/relationships to make this story's characters more complex, rather, in a realistic/common setting, you just feel how human the characters are

interesting that people are suggesting the story's moving in a supernatural direction and that the mc might be a vampire? i dont really think that's the case here (or at least i hope not)
the story kinda reminds me of black swan, ** movie spoiler alert(?) in this mini paragraph ** in the sense that the supernatural/ body horror within the film aren't necessarily reality but projections of the mc's psyche
the mc here seems to be coping in a similar manner against similar suffocating, overbearing households and sexual abuse
i think the house is poisoning/drugging the children to keep them sick, which makes yoshie's comments/face when she hopes the mc gets well to be really sickening (( she's a likable character otherwise, but that underlining sadistic manipulation is really crazy but also great storytelling -- if what i said reveals to be true ofc
the mc offers up his body to the master and shows deep affection and desire for the master because the master has already distorted the mc's sense of desire, normality and reality by laying his hands on the boy at such a young age
the mc doesn't understand what's going on and i don't either lmao
(( another thought, while i really like the classmate, the parallels between his story and this one, along with the fact that the classmate plays the younger brother's role is really striking but also troubling
thank god yoshida's a (dressed alt.) wholesome boy -- i think he actually helped moved the main couple's relationship forward and comforted mc's insecurities about soma + soma's past relationship
booo on soma for setting things up like that (even if he knew it'd all work out cuz he knows yoshida well -- still boo)
homie, you broke your bf's heart because of this ex (literally said you loved him when you knew mc was falling in love) and now you're casually chatting + meeting with said ex without addressing mc's super big n valid insecurity regarding everything?? and then throwing mc into the mix with no prep -- not even a "i just wanted to make sure you came" talk when everyone first gathered -- nope, just let mc sit awkwardly in fear and anxiety for way too long of the meal
also yoshida didn't have to say "i think soma's easy to understand" the way he did right after mc said he's uncertain how soma feels...
^i get that everything was for the sake of the plot (author wants the flow to be more interesting -- same goes for soma not addressing the elephant in the restaurant) but jeez it makes the characters a lil less likeable -- is there really no way to write intesting (momentary) tension without making the characters slight assholes