Okay, so recently I have come to terms with the fact that I am mostly attracted to women after seven years of denying it. But now that I am out to myself fully, I want to be out with other people. And there are issues with me doing so.
I am really close with my sister, but when we were younger, she used to say bisexual people were selfish/gross. My parents are supremely religious and my father is kinda mentally and verbally abusive. My friends kinda know ( with the exception of the one I have a crush on), and they tend to talk over me in conversations, which I am mostly okay with. I am completely out with my gay cousin, but she outed me to my bigoted cousin, so I can't trust her. The friend I have a crush on is the most understanding person I know and shares conversations rather than leading them, but I told her about my eating disorder in TOO much detail and I have a tendency to word vomit ( as you can tell), so I'm worried about accidentally ruining our friendship by oversharing or telling her I like her.
I have always isolated myself from others because I have never felt good enough for their attention, so attaining new friends in a small town is difficult. So I'm just suffering by myself the way I always have, and it's making my mental health deteriorate even more. I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry for rambling. Thank you for reading, kind stranger. I hope you have a good day.
Oh I know how people who give shit can be. I've learned how to do it as well, but that's not important. i think ur best option would be to grow up and leave and then come out. Unless u live in a family like mine where the only way ur allowed to do so is getting married, in that case u just may be fucked. Or u could just explain to them that u are attracted to women and maybe they'll dislike it but u'll have to live with that. And when, or if, you do make sure u have a back-up plan, aka, if u need to leave then u have a place to go and can go there.
Okay, so recently I have come to terms with the fact that I am mostly attracted to women after seven years of denying it. But now that I am out to myself fully, I want to be out with other people. And there are issues with me doing so.
I am really close with my sister, but when we were younger, she used to say bisexual people were selfish/gross. My parents are supremely religious and my father is kinda mentally and verbally abusive. My friends kinda know ( with the exception of the one I have a crush on), and they tend to talk over me in conversations, which I am mostly okay with.
I am completely out with my gay cousin, but she outed me to my bigoted cousin, so I can't trust her. The friend I have a crush on is the most understanding person I know and shares conversations rather than leading them, but I told her about my eating disorder in TOO much detail and I have a tendency to word vomit ( as you can tell), so I'm worried about accidentally ruining our friendship by oversharing or telling her I like her.
I have always isolated myself from others because I have never felt good enough for their attention, so attaining new friends in a small town is difficult. So I'm just suffering by myself the way I always have, and it's making my mental health deteriorate even more. I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry for rambling. Thank you for reading, kind stranger. I hope you have a good day.
Oh I know how people who give shit can be. I've learned how to do it as well, but that's not important. i think ur best option would be to grow up and leave and then come out.
Unless u live in a family like mine where the only way ur allowed to do so is getting married, in that case u just may be fucked. Or u could just explain to them that u are attracted to women and maybe they'll dislike it but u'll have to live with that. And when, or if, you do make sure u have a back-up plan, aka, if u need to leave then u have a place to go and can go there.