Eros's Manga

I stopped reading around 43, because the quality of translation dipped. However, I am confused. The mc keeps acting like SHES the one who died (aka acting like the story from the novel is her) but she mentioned herself she knew it was a novel early on? Its pissing me off and shes being so frustrating about the marriage when this is what she signed up for. I think the ml is super hot, but the plot holes on the mc are killing me. The author is just changing her thoughts to whatever makes drama without reasoning. 3 stars for the ml

kinda weird how she's older and still liking a 10 yo boy. she says she doesn't, but it hints towards it and she's like omg what am I feeling towards this boy at my age. like that's what I'm saying. stop.