It's a easy trap to fall into. For a lot of years,about 12,the only time I really went out was to find a guy for casual sex at a cruising spot. No swapping of names etc,then back to my room. Don't beat yourself up over it,sounds like you got past it.
This isn't what really happens in the anime its not the real thing. They don't have sex nor do they confess their feelings. But its badass, sad, and funny anime in a kind of way. You sould watch it.
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