...going to be so heavy and so tragic and utterly heart-wrecking.
i hope naeyoung gets a chance to actually acknowledge his trauma in full as well as grieve his brother more openly if he already hasn't. and i hope jin stays by him through all that (or rather i wish naeyoung decides to keep jin by him) because come on jin is literally waiting to be allowed to love naeyoung. to the point he's even been attempting to read through him like he does suspects from their first encounter (or er re-encounter? i guess?) just to be able to understand him and help him in whatever way he can (i suppose).
i really want this story to be as long and as twisted and as sad as these first 20 chapters have let on. i'll be staying here alright. with my tissues and antihistaminics and all.
im glad to see naeyoung ask himself the exact question i asked when the previous chapter came out (word to word even. damn kinda happy im able to keep up with the characters lol)...
anyhow now that naeyoung got reminded of his trauma and that he can feel the difference between what he thought was all bad is something that can actually feel good with the right person im really hoping for a journey towards healing through new-found love (yeah Jin and Nari make him stay for breakfast!!)
There are still a ways to go before they reached this stage...
Moreover, Naeyoung's gap moe felt unnecessary, what with him initiating the sex (cause Jin had made his intention crystal from the get-go, so obviously he won't deny the guy he's crushing on). Did Naeyoung really get caught in the heat of the moment or had he really not realized how touch-starved his trauma had left him until Jin kissed him? (could it be that it's an intense reaction to a positive or relatively harmless touch? something im sure he hasn't experienced in a long while.) idk man yall tell me...
I've been that way when I met my ex. No physical contact other than family, when he kissed me the first time I just lost my mind and went crazy for him and ended up sleeping together that night (no alcohol involved either). It'd been 6-8 years since I'd been with someone as I'm very shy irl, so I was very touch starved. I felt that scene was very realistic from having experienced it myself.
what is up with the massive shoulders on the white haired dude lmao
prime example of BL anatomy
90S BL at that