Aki's Favorite

the difference between leo and jj is that when leo was hurting jj, he wasn’t doing it on purpose. he’s just stupid and unaware.

jj is purposely trying to hurt leo, instead of acting like an adult and talking about what’s wrong, he’d rather be vindictive.

i guarantee if jj would’ve sat leo down and talked about this when originally became a problem, they could’ve worked on it. instead he just bottled it up until he exploded.

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you guys have to stop being mean in the comment section. like i said, i didn’t upload this chapter, someone else did. what i’m trying to do is re-upload the mature version for you guys. but my update never come through and nothing changed, so give me a bit of more time and don’t be rude. thank you. // chapter has been fixed. thanks to those who were patient.

Okay so I caved and ran some dialogue from the raws through Google translate and know pretty much what happens from Ch. 26-33 (end of season 1, now it is on hiatus until March 18). Somebody please discuss the raws with me, I'm DYING...

MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR EACH CHAPTER, PLUS AN ESSAY-LEVEL ANALYSIS
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Ch. 26 - After asking Suha out, Director Park says "I don't want anybody else touching my secretary." (SQUEALING!!!) Anyway, Suha is dense af and has a flashback to when an ex-boyfriend asked him out.

Ex said: "I want you to date you, please sleep only with me." And Suha realized, "Right, because you like my body." So he thinks the Director is not actually asking him out, just wants exclusive access to sleeping with him.

So the day after they have sex, Suha says, "You said you liked me, and I like your body too. We don't have to date." The Director is like ???? Suha: Since I'm not sleeping with anyone else, please only sleep with me too." And Director makes a scary af face and says "Let's agree on not sleeping with anyone else," and Suha thinks "The director is pretty easy" (COMING FROM YOU, SUHA???)

So sorry to disappoint, they are not officially dating. Suha just completely misunderstood. I wonder if he thinks he's not worth anything more than his body, and has some past trauma. Idk I'll get to why I think this in a bit.

Ch.27 - Okay so after they get done sleeping with each other, they have sex like 5 more times lol. Anyway, Suha can barely walk afterwards so Director takes him back to the bar hyung's place that Suha is staying at. Bar hyung says, " Thanks for taking care of Suha," and Director says, "It's only natural that I should take care of him." LOOLL.

Ch. 28 - Miss Choi and Director Park are meeting (I didn't translate everything, but I think they rescheduled the thing that Director Park ran out on in Ch. 24). Miss Choi, the badass she is, says, "Suha isn't in a position to refuse you," warning Director Park about the inherent power imbalance in their relationship. Director Park pulls a pikachu face.

Later, he meets with SUHA'S SISTER, turns out he's been calling her for information about Suha aka SPYING in return for her getting presents like makeup etc. (We stan a yandere seme and a clueless cute little sister.) He says, "keep it a secret from Suha HYUNG" aka he sees Suha as an older brother figure of sorts. (They did live together as children, it's been hinted several times.)

Ch. 29 - Okay so this part was a bit confusing but President Lee called in Director Park, saying that she wanted to move Suha to a higher department, where he would be working under her, and a man named DO-HYEOK that I think will eventually replace her. This man was first mentioned in Ch. 24 by that tan brown-haired guy at the hotel that used Suha in the past. That guy asked, "How is Do-hyeok doing?" And Suha says, "I don't care." or something. Again, Do-hyeok is not a guy we've met, but he's pretty clearly a part of Suha's past and also knew that other guy that Suha slept with.

Anyway, Director Park has a flashback to where he's a high schooler and lying in a hospital bed alone with injuries and stuff. (Like he'd been beat up or bullied? Can't tell, don't think it said why he was there.) Anyway, Suha was watching over him, and before he leaves, baby Director Park asks, "Will we get to meet again?" Suha says, "Of course, young master."

Back in the present, Director Park is freaking out, thinking, "He's being taken away from me again."

Later, he goes to see Suha and almost kisses him, then draws away when he remembers what Miss Choi said about Suha being unable to refuse. Suha is confused and blue-balled. "what a pity he didn't fuck me" lololol drama is about to go down and this man thinks about nothing but sex

Ch. 30 - Okay so nothing really happens in this chapter, it's just Suha being extremely horny because Director has been avoiding him and masturbating with the dildo. He then texts Director and asks to come over, and Director says, "Okay." Then Suha gets up excitedly to go have sex with the director lolol. This guy cares about nothing but sex, I feel bad for Director Park.

Ch. 31 and 32 - Suha pounces on the director. "You've been avoiding me recently. I don't know if anything happened between you and Miss Choi (??) but I'll help you destress." Then he sucks him off. Director Park is like, "Mr. Lee, you don't have to care about that" all embarassed, and Suha responds cheekily, "Then I can do whatever I want? Just sit back and I'll do as please." Then he jumps on top of him and poor Director Park short circuits. More sex.

Suha: "I want to do it with you every day."
Director Park: "You'll have to stay beside me every day then. Will you stay by my side?"
Suha: of course

~kyyaaaaa~ This is the closest to a confession we're going to get from Suha lol.

Ch. 33 - OKAY SO THIS CHAPTER!!!! THE SEASON FINALE!! SO MANY BOMBS WERE DROPPED!!
First of all, Director Park asks Suha to come to his place after work. For obvious reasons hehe... then some lady shows up at Director Park's house (not romantic) to give him a picture frame. I think it's his maid, she was cleaning his house and broke that picture frame that Suha had pointed out in an earlier chapter when they were having sex, so she replaced the frame.

Anyway, Suha is now at a meeting with President Lee. She asks, "How do you feel about working beside me, and helping Do-hyeok in the future? Suha politely turns it down, saying he likes working under Director Park, but President Lee is like "Weren't you and Do-hyeok super close back then?" and Suha is visibly uncomfortable.

And then we get a flashback to when Suha is in high school and moving into the big house... and he greets a tall guy with red hair. "My name is Suha Lee. I will be in the same class as you."

Then it goes back to the present! And Do-hyeok says, "Suha Lee," with an evil smirk and Suha says, "Do-hyeok Park" with an expression of horror on his face.

Now back to Director Park's point of view. He's still looking at the picture frame of their family (Suha's mother, sister, President Lee, and two brothers (? I think) - Jiwoon and Do-hyeok, and in the old picture, high-school age Do-hyeok is standing with HIS ARM AROUND SUHA, SMIRKING, WHILE SUHA IS BLUSHING!!!!

GOD WHAT A CLIFFHANGER!!! So there's definitely going to be a ton of drama -- maybe Do-hyeok was Suha's first love and broke his heart or something? Suha looked genuinely terrified to be in the same room as him. Any theories!!?? This manwha is amazing -- I've reread it like 50 times looking for clues. Also, in the one of the chapters President Lee says, "I'll start sending Do-hyeok abroad, I don't trust Director Park/Jiwoon." So Director Park clearly has some sort of inferiority complex because President Lee likes Do-hyeok more, and has been in love with Suha for a long time, and probably realized his brother and Suha were really close... HMMMM.

Anyway, hope this was helpful to somebody. I literally typed out an essay here haha and now will count down until March 18.

hi, i lost the comment but someone said they wanted the raws to the FEVER spin off? here are the links, but they're in imgbox (easy to upload) so i'm afraid you're gonna have to download it to read since it can't jump pages. sorry about the inconvenience, but i hope you guys enjoy

CH1 - http://imgbox.com/g/oV6FNNsyUk
CH2 - http://imgbox.com/g/0TaXfSowhZ
CH3 - http://imgbox.com/g/sC1SrlEyzu
CH4 - http://imgbox.com/g/BIRnjRAHq8
CH5 - http://imgbox.com/g/0bfkRiZL9e
CH6 - http://imgbox.com/g/2nXbCBxbYi

I've posted before about this without spoiling, and it physically HURTs me that people are giving out wrong spoilers based off some google translate thing they didn't even bother to cross reference. A lot of spoilers are out of context of the whole story and omits SO MUCH so i'm going to explain it as best as I can, referring to my previous post. These spoilers are coming from the novel version btw, and whether or not JAXX choses to adapt them will be another issue altogether. But anyway, here goes.

There are several major factors and characters I shall address.

1. Ryan (Blonde dude from earlier in the series)
He has a much bigger role in the books than in the webtoon thus far, but idk how big his role might be ahead because he has a major role to play in the latter half of the series. As far as I know, he is NOT a love rival or anything of that sort. There has never been and isn't going to be anything romantic between him and McQueen at all. He harbours certain hatred McQueen for reasons, blames him for a lot of his ongoing issues and he has a lot . He has a son, with a prostitute and he also seems to have drug issues and is generally pretty messed up. In the novels, he and Ed live together, and McQueen and Ed have meals with Ryan and his son Cecil, even helping to take care of his son because Ryan isn't really the best parent.

He is actually the main reason why Ed and McQueen break up. But more on that in a bit.

2. Ed and McQueen
In the books McQueen is seen doing a lot more porn that in the webtoon to begin with; here he seems like he does more of the background work like directing etc. But in any case, novel McQueen and Ed BOTH continue to film porn with other partners, although Ed only ever bottoms for McQueen after. In the novels, there's no confession at the train station. They get together, but there's no actual verbalisation of the "I love you"s till much later. So although they're making porn with other people, they're also not exclusively together in the books at this point. I believe McQueen initially hoped to kind of do couples porn with Ed, but at some point after they do both stop doing porn anyway. But in any case, obviously the webtoon should differ from that.

Third parties are never a major major issue in the books for our main pair. They do love each other, although it takes a much longer time for McQueen to verbalise it there. Yes there is a 'love triangle' of sorts with Chang, but the feelings of the main pair never wavers for each other, although circumstances in the later parts do drive a wedge between them. The McEd pairing is actually quite fluffy in the books as well.

A major plot point in the novels. revolves around McQueen's writing of the movie's script. A journalist basically finds out that McQueen is the director of that movie, and it makes the news. Its huge news, and it goes on broadcast that a pornstar directed a religious movie. The website is being overloaded by views – and the site Ed's audition film with McQueen (for a DVD) is on there. The next day he goes to work, its obvious that all his coworkers know about his doing porn. Ed is asked to resign from his job as a security officer due to security reasons.

Upset, Ed then tries to contact McQueen, but he is unable to call through to him. This is because McQueen was being hounded by journalists at the time and he explains it to Ed. They then talk about plans for the future, like going on a cruise and stuff. Ed gets a little drunk, and confesses he watched a porno with McQueen and Ryan. More context on this is that Ryan and McQueen did something like a 'non-consensual' kink play? It's not actually non-consensual and its not rape for sure, but Ryan apparently has a history of sexual assault prior and told Ed before that McQueen exploits vulnerable men for money i.e. something like he basically did the shoot because he was in a vulnerable position (drug issues money issues etc.). Ed watched the porno, and then tell McQueen he agrees with Ryan that what happened was rape. McQueen is livid to think that Ed could think something like that of him, and says something along the lines of "I can't believe I was falling in love with you". They break up and don't contact each other for weeks after that.

Ed gets a job at the airport, but its not very stable. Prior to this, Ed had already stopped doing porn was also working for Chang doing some security, but he stopped that too after the porn reveal and hasn't contacted Chang since.

Lancer contacts Ed who is now in high demand because of the porn reveal, and asks him to do escort/prostitution work with him (He gave him an Escort card way earlier in the novels I think as an invitation already). Ed wonders if McQueen will find out, and then decides that he "doesn't care" and so on New Years Day, Lancer tells him that he's got this client and that Lancer raised the price on him (because of his high demand); Ed doesn't know who he is, but he turns up anyway. The client is Chang.


3. Chang
Chang hasn't met Ed since the porn reveal, New Years Day is the first time they're meeting after the reveal. Chang doesn't believe at first that Ed actually came, and Ed tries to walk away after realising its Chang. But Chang physically grabs him and tells him he paid for him, showing him the escort card he took from Ed's apartment (given by Lancer earlier). Chang offers to make Ed's debt disappear – if he stays beside him for a year. Ed considers and then refuses thinking this guy is the one who even ruined his life by saddling him with this debt in the first place. They argue, Chang makes jibes about Ed doing sex work and Ed, fed up, asks him if he wants to be fucked. Ed pulls down Chang's zipper to prove a point.

Then Chang pushes Ed onto the bed and starts getting physical with him. At several points, Ed says it hurts, and that he wants it to stop. Chang mocks him, bites him, and continues anyway. Ed tries to punch him to get away from him, saying he's changed his mind and telling him to stop. He grabs his clothes and tries to escape several times but fails. Chang r*pes Ed. In this interim, Ed realises that Chang has had feelings for him all along, and that he's just been trying to ignore it the whole time; after the deed is done, he asks Chang if he likes him – and Chang doesn't confirm or deny it. Ed tells him it doesn't matter because Chang is dead to him anyway, and tells Chang he wants to ruin him, like Chang ruined Ed.

He walks out (Chang is still there), to run into McQueen – Ed wondered previously if McQueen was going to find out about him doing escort/prostitution work so he clearly did – McQueen tells Ed he didn't want to break up with Ed in the first place, tells him that he loves him, and that he wants to get back together. Ed wants to say yes, but he just had sex with (was raped by) Chang, so he doesn't respond, just leaves both men without saying anything. McQueen and Chang fight, and Ed sees McQueen again the next day; McQueen tells him he doesn't care about the whole Chang thing, and they get back together.

McQueen tells him he's quitting porn for him and selling the company, and tells Ed to check his bank account – $500,000, which is the amount he owes Chang. Chang actually confesses his feelings to Ed after this, and Ed tells him he doesn't care and to check his bank account, that's his answer. Essentially he pays off his debt, and from there he's saying that they no longer will have any ties to each other.

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So essentially I wanted to clarify a few things.

Ed didn't lose his bodyguard job because of McQueen but the journalist actually, and McQueen didn't abandon him because of the reveal at all. He had a huge debt to Chang – but McQueen didn't pay it off probably because $500,000 is kind of not pocket change?? He sold his company and paid off Ed's debts. McQueen is not the cause of Ed doing escorting; that's Ed's choice. Their break up was NOT caused by Ed not wanting to do an adult movie with McQueen.

McQueen and Ed's relationship is complex, and ultimately human. They make mistakes and there's miscommunication and there's arguments of course, but there's also reasons why certain things unfold the way they do. The novels are way longer than the webtoons, and lots of things have been and will be taken out. So bear in mind that too.

I hope this helped in some way and if anyone else is going to bullshit about the 'spoiler' without knowing what they're talking about again i'm going to hit the roof.

So I read the novel and I'm super disappointed. I loved how the story started and how heart wrenching it was, but it kind of turned into a drag, with the author not taking the multiple chances to end the story and stretching it out to be some torture fest for the seme. Which, don't get me wrong, was super satisfying for me because the seme was such a douchebag, but there comes a point where it's just overdone and tiring.
In the novel, the uke finally packed his bags and left for his (and seme's) hometown. The doctor chased after him, and insisted on staying and looking after the uke. The uke never really came to love the doctor, but he was grateful and full of guilt that he can never return the doctor's love. The seme went crazy trying to find the uke and developed a heart problem. When he finally found the uke, the doctor refused to let him see uke and uke didn't do anything either. This is where the story started going downhill. The author seemed really self indulgent in how they seemed more interested in torturing the seme as much as possible and for as long as possible rather than developing an ending that was fitting, for all their personalities. The doctor was in love with the uke for no reason at all, and seemed to exist as a roadblock more than anything. And because he refused to let the seme see uke before his death, and uke was the type to not fight these things, uke eventually passed away in loneliness and sadness. And yes, the seme was shite to him the few years before this, but neither were given a chance to reconcile because of the doctor, and the seme was doing everything in his power to see uke and make it up to him. The doctor also didn't inform the seme of uke's death until an entire week later, and told seme what uke allegedly said before he died, which was that the uke never wanted to see the seme again, neither in life nor in death. Absolute asshat move on doc's part. We never find out if uke actually said that or not, but seme was tortured by it. He became an alcoholic, seeking memories of uke in his dreams, refused to accept the reality that uke was dead and gone, waited for uke to come home every night, self-harmed, and with his friends' intervention, went on a trip around the world. But he would forever feel tortured and never find solace in anything.

Like I said, the author sort of went on a trip torturing the seme as much as possible, and it went on for way too long (honestly it felt like 3/5 of the book went to describing how tortured the seme felt). There were a lot of points where the uke could have avoided a lot of pain and problems if he had just spoken up instead of expecting the seme to understand everything and act accordingly (hello, he's not a mind reader), and while the seme definitely made many unforgivable mistakes, the author makes it seem like every single issue between them was the seme's fault. Overall the book was overdramatic and overindulgent on the author's part. Which is super disappointing since it had such a promising start.