I don't see Mirai as a bad guy here like the others do. Like come one. He properly considered his ex's feelings before and after going out with them and he really loved them in his own way. Actually his ex's are the evil ones. Hahaha. Ex-boyfriend #1, not knowing Mirai's reason why he didn't call him, jumped into conclusion that Mirai actually didn't feel a bit of affection for him, when in fact Mirai didn't call him because he didn't want to disrupt his concentration while taking the entrance exam and end up failing. Ex-boyfriend #2, we all know what he did in the train. Fucking coward. Ex-boyfriend #3, he took Mirai's first time and just up and left. Although I think he wanted to take Mirai with him but ended up leaving by himself and abandoning Mirai. Y'all stop hating on Mirai. He's the victim here. ( ̄ε(# ̄)
Aight, I can tell from the previous topics that almost all of us can relate to Aki. Yep, it just us feeling inferior against the world. Sometimes we would feel like we're the blacksheep in the family or think that we're actually adopted and parents won't just tell to spare us the hurt. Then we start to ask ourselves why are we even born? What's my purpose? Well, boohoo. That's just life. We just can't accept who we are. And we don't know that everybody has their own shortcomings just like we do. That's why we fall into depression. We want to be someone else, someone who is not who we are. So we end up comparing ourselves to others and long for what they have. Denying our own worth. Isolating our thoughts. We're the ones depressing ourselves.
Now, I'm depressed. ( ̄∇ ̄")
But you know what? You know all that and seem to know yourself pretty well. You also know you try to become someone else who's not you, so instead why not just accept you are who you are and just try to do things you think is right, little by little? We can't really escape depression, but if we find what makes us depressed then we can just try to change our train of thought. Like Aki-chan did :)
It lacks scenes for the uke to fall in love with the seme. I mean there was nothing remarkable about him falling in love. No cheesy moments nor even drama that could actually pull them closer together. The seme was a dick and did nothing too grand to make the uke's heart skip a beat except the kiss. It needs substance.
The ending feels quite rushed. Not much pondering nor drama. Maybe Izumi's perspective of the story would have been a good addition to it. Or Yoshioka having regret what was lost and crying his eyeballs out. Izumi withering again and forgetting about Yoshioka then meet again after a few years. Clichés are still good as long as they do perfectly with the story. It's still a good read, though. Just that the ending feels lacking.
I would've thought that it would've gone back to his Izumi hair color changed and memory loss part again. But, didn't. There was drama around chapters 3 and 4 that resolved rather quickly and although the story ended on chapter 8. I was happy, but wanted a little more.